It's been a year since I've been here in Manila and it seems I've been stuck here for almost a long decade now.... Yah, I've been missing the old days.. the school.. the studies... the bonding... the projects.. the "extra-curricular activities".. all those stuff...
Minsan din kasi, (even H.S. days..), Ive became so dependent sa mga kaibigan ko... minsan nga di ako maka galaw ng wala sila... and as what I've mention, even I'm a year old here in Manila... namimiss ko rin ang pina pamper ka ng mga kaibigan mo...
kasi naman, di na sila nagpaparamdam.. whether ung mga highschool friends ko or yung mga kasama ko sa college (although hindi maikakaila na meroong tampuhang naganap between us). Nagkita kami kahapon ni Aby (college friend ko) sa Greenbelt to attend a mass, then she let me see the pics (that was taken last december on our christmas party) and it was the pics when the barkada's complete... no conflicts or whatsoever.. then narealize ko na, kalahating taon na pla un... na nakakaraan...
ba't ko ba naisip tong mga 'to? ba't ko ba bigla clang na-alala? to think na choosing to stay in manila would automatically separate me from them?.... kasi naman nasa Manila ako lately(University belt) and it's almost the start of the new schoolyear.. I just can't help but to look back on the days that we were still together.. when we were still complete...
"Gone are the days when we were young
and words are left un-sung,
the mem'ries we've shared was ours to keep
not to burried them on the ground that is so deep...."
I know naman that we really have to move on... pero u cannot just erase those times na nagkasama kayo diba? siguro nga 'time heals a wound'... but according to "Dumbledore" na "some wounds run deep for the healing..."
according sa work.. ayun, dispersd ang team namen and napunta pa ko sa taong never kong na-realized that he existed.. mean na kung mean.. pero ganun lang talaga... minsan napaka-odd... u'll be in situations you least expect them to happen...
as for my life as a whole.. it's moving forward.. hoping this things happening right now to lasts.... into eternity.. I'm happy (kahit namimiss ko mga klaibigan ko) di lang din ako siguro ng sanay na mag-isa... sana di nya ko iwan even with my flaws.. kung iwan man nya ko sana ung matatangap ko ang dahilan.. coz im giving myself na... without any hesitations.. this is just me.. u just have to see me.. deeply...
"I want you to see me naked
and my soul shoul you awakened
for that's the only reason to understand me
that Im with you with everything... endlessly..."
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