Orange and Lemon

"Hanggang Kailan"

Labis na naiinip
Nababagot sa bawat saglit
Kapag naaalala ka
Wala naman akong magawa

Umuwi ka na baby
Di na ako sanay ng wala ka
Mahirap ang mag-isa
At sa gabi'y hinahanap hanap kita

Hanggang kailan ako maghihintay
Na makasama kang muli
Sa buhay kong puno ng
Paghihirap
At tanging ikaw lang ang
Pumapawi sa mga luha
Naglalagay ng ngiti sa mga labi

Di mapigilang mag-isip
O baka sa tagal
Mahulog ang loob mo sa iba
Nakaka balisa
Knock on wood wag naman sana

we should be responsible for all our actions...

this is what I've learned from the 23 years of my existence... but i was stunned to realized that i still don't have it by heart...

last tuesday, an e-mail that was sent by me to a yahoo group that caused a collission between the two of us... it is my fault.. whatever way ur gonna percieve it, it's all wrong, it's not proper, i wasn't raised to be like that, and it would not cused any good to my morale...

It is however nice to know that I have someone who was blessed with understanding and patience and provided me with great consideration... if only the Filipino people would also do the same, to give the President a chance, for whatever mistake she had, then we can see the good deeds of her governemnt... but all we do is to look at the bad sides, the flaws, and we didn't gave her any single chance... everybody do committ mistake but it is no longer decent to oust every president we have just because we wants to.. for all I know, it is just for their own "asses"!!!

Yes, one wrong step leads to another... it is a long, continous and unended cycle. Just one stupid mistake can crash you down....

constantly

I knew it was there
Though I tried to hide it
The feeling just kept on shining through
Haven’t known you that long
So I try to deny it
But the feeling was much too
Much too strong

Could this be love
Deep down inside
Tearing me apart
I feel it in my heart

Constantly, you’re on my mind
Thinking about you all the time
I can’t sleep no matter what I do
I just keep on thinking ‘bout you

Why do I feel this way
When I know you have someone
That you’re seeing each and everyday
Should I play this game
Of just being your friend but i know that’s not where I want it to end

How could this be wrong
When it feels so strong
Tearing me apart
I feel it in my heart
No I don’t want to start
No trouble
Between you and I and you lover
But I must tell you what I’m going through
Everytime you walk by
I see love in your eyes

circles.....

time's running so fast, we always had small quarrels that leads to confrontations.. but fortunately, we were able to fix things and we become stronger.. hope it will be till the end... it just freaks me out to realized that, waht if there will be an end on this... I don't know if i would be able to make it without you!!

As for my job, well, it's quite the same... im so tired of the daily routines.. imagine being absent for 8 days out of 10-day cut-off? what would you expect would be my paycheck on the 30th? hmmmmmmmnn...

ive applied to different companies for the past few days, and i recieve positive feedbacks, but i have to disregard them because im still waiting for another job who can provide me with more benefits... self-centered me.. hehehe

I'm so glad evertyhing seems to be normal.. hope this would last for a long time

breakdown,,,

Once again, I let someone hurt me... it was so deep... the person u once looke-up to, the person u cherished with all your life, and that will also be the person who will give you the taste of bitterness... the person you've trusted most.. and the source of your strength... how can u stand now when that person who used to stood by you left you in the midst of obscurity... I felt so harrased, so manipulated. I was caught off-guarded, with no wings to fly and destiny's seems so dark.... you once thought me how to love not knowing ur only there to teach me and not to be there to share it with me..... I hope u are now contended of what u've made me... weak and helpless.. hoping that death will lead me to where i don't feel this pain... somewhere no you to hurt me...



you called yesterday, to basically say
that you care for me but, that you're just not in love
immediately i pretended to be feeling similarly
and led you to believe i was okay
to just walk away from the one thing
that's so unyielding and sacred to me

chorus:
well i guess i'm trying to be nonchalant about it
and i'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you
but in reality i'm slowly losing my mind
underneath the guise of a smile gradually i'm dying inside
friends ask me how i feel, and i lie convincingly
cause i don't want to reveal the fact that i'm suffering
so i wear my disguise 'til i go home at night
and turn down all the lights and then i break down and cry

so what do you do when somebody you're so devoted to
suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven't
got a clue
of the pain that rejection is putting you through
do you cling to your pride and sing "i will survive"
do you lash out and say "how dare you leave this way"
do you hold on in vain as they just slip away

.....left in the middle

Ive told u before that if ur gonna leave, make sure that everything's settled and everything would be fine, on both sides... but then again, u left at the time which i needed someone... in a point which i do not have any shoulder that I could cry on.....

You've choose that path.. but the suffer's mine. U left, but it was I who has to cry....

all i ask is to spare me a little time... but u decided to give it to others.. self-centered me, but that's all i ask, and u've hesitated.. i was the one who decided on this.. but it is so much easy for you, coz maybe all u want is this.... to leave...

i once asked u, if u won something, and i was ur prize, wat wud I be.. u suddenly said, "PARA LANG AKONG NANALO SA JUETENG SA IYo".....

ooppss!!!!

I just talked to my operations manager and i was given an opportunity to take time to think it over before jumping out of the Company. Yes, even with some shortomming of the Comapany, I can say that I'm proud to bepart of thte one of the Biggest outsourcing Industry in the country, so I had a second thought of leaving soon... hence, I still have some plans of moving...... and to all my ka team mates... salamat pa rin sa support.......

end...

I've decided, I quit. it's a long story, but I have to face it... it came to me at the least expected time.. but I have to go on... there would be several options for me..


(im the white guy, and the tallest....)

Working with such nice and very professional people gave me a very hard time for I just cannot leave them behind... I've been with them since the earliest period of "team Jengoloids"

I've wrote them a letter, but it is to give my deepest appreciation and letting them know how
I became happy working with them...

5, sinko, lima, five, V,

how I feel so alive
coz u and me, we're on five
tot that we will never survive
but we end up on a jive

u said u love me more
like a fast growing sycamore
and guess what's instore?
my heart for you that can never be tore

I'm crying every night
for i don't want you 2 b outta sight
though, it is not right
coz u have ur own life

but hope u ndrstnd
missing u i cnt outstand
but i know in urs i will land
and will keep me so tight in ur hand

u just have to be true
and i will never be blue
surely nothings gonna be new
for i will always love you.....

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