HAPPY NEW YEAR

2005 is about to end, Time flies.. I just turned 23 and now I'll be 24! I can't just imagine being that old, and before we knew it I'm gonna be 30!~ Anyway, that's reality that we have to accept and instead of being depressed, deal with it as another challenge for another journey. "Live and let live". So, to welcome new year with mere anticipation of so much fun, I would like open the year with my own set of goals that I should accopmish this 2006!


**nEw yEaR's gOal**
~Cost cuttin'..
sobrang gastos ko the past year, I need to save coz I want to purchase alot of stuff this year
~Go to Gym

~Move out (from my place)

~Read more books

~Explore(go to places I haven't been with)

~Go to baguio (fix some stuff)

~Save money for my PSP
heheheheh


.................(2 b continued)

Ordinary People

John Legend

[Verse 1]

Girl im in love with you

This ain't the honeymoon

Past the infatuation phase

Right in the thick of love

At times we get sick of love

It seems like we argue everyday

[Bridge]

I know i misbehaved

And you made your mistakes

And we both still got room left to grow

And though love sometimes hurts

I still put you first

And we'll make this thing work

But I think we should take it slow

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people

We don't know which way to go

Cuz we're ordinary people

Maybe we should take it slow

(Take it slow oh oh ohh)

This time we'll take it slow

(Take it slow oh oh ohh)

This time we'll take it slow

[Verse 2]

This ain't a movie no

No fairy tale conclusion ya'll

It gets more confusing everyday

Sometimes it's heaven sent

Then we head back to hell again

We kiss and we make up on the way

[Bridge]

I hang up you call

We rise and we fall

And we feel like just walking away

As our love advances

We take second chances

Though it's not a fantasy

I Still want you to stay

what a heck.....

Im exhausted.. heavent got enought sleep.. Im at work ayt now and Im very tired... I wanna go home and sleep.. but it is impossible for me, still a few hours before I can log-out... Last saturday, I woke up early (5pm.. slept at 730 am) then I went to Las Pinas ( fom Q.C.!) then we had a gathering with my co-workers from Convergys.. We went to our workplace, to give our Former Team Leader a surprise for her Birthday. Then, we went out for a couple of beer and we decided to stay at 'East 19' in Sucat. After a couple of bottles and long remeniscing, we then parted at 1230am. I took the bus to travel from Sucat to Makati, and when I arrive in makati, I ride a cab going to Malate to meet my friends... I meet them at Starbucks and had some little chitchat. One of them came all the way from Baguio, we then go to this bar. After a while, another group was waiting for me in Nakpil, so I went ahead decided to stay with them. We had so much fun and we dance the night away...... at 6 am, the party has ended, decided to walk a few steps unitl we decided to go home. We reached their place at 7:00 am. The day hasn't ended yet for me because I have to attend the Christening of my first niece and I'm her godfather. From Q.C., I went directly to Laguna to attend the ceremony.. without any sleep.. still, I managed to travel and attend the ceremony. I even had few bottles of beer,,, again. And finally, at 300pm, I was able to sleep even for a couple of hours, and I finished the day by goin home at 900pm. Luckily I'm still alive...
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lala land

an interlude to "reflections".....





I sail the oceans where poseidon reigns
fought with pirates with my every vein
I've conquered so many deserted lands from the north
but It felt discontenting, so unamused with my extreme effort


I had face to face with different creatures
from warewolves to ogres, demons to centaures
I met good friends that help me to find my treasure
on my journey, to complete my tasks it what they assure


I sacrificed my fate even to battle with hideous goblins
and even blinded by the beauty of mermaids and fairies
but one thing made this tale so much enchanting,
to find a princess in the tower of my greiving......

reflections......

Time's running fast, so fast that I forget most of the things I should accomplish.... I was undermined by my own thoughts and acts of my vehement philosopies.... felt like I was scrutinized with my own egocentricity.... I don't mean to hurt other's feelings, not in the way that I know..... It's not forbidden to follow the beat of our hearts, unknowingly that some people might be affected with this self-centeredness.... Being mean is not what it takes but I may not be strong enough to face the shadow of darkness of my path.. But I have to battle like heroes from fairytales, to cruise the ocean full of meremaides and bargain for my life. I have to travel down the path of dark and wicked forrest, to meet the wolves and the ogres, to duel with pirates, to bewitched by elves.. but I need to be brave to accept whatever peril I might be drifted into...... but atleast, I fought... I have to look at the mirror and tell my self, it's okay.. that in the end, I've tried to be strong... that I don't owe an appology to no one.. for I only wanna live.. live in a world to where I propend...... that there's an ever after.....

Push the button

Im tired to edit it.. but I love the song........



by Sugabages

I'm busy throwing hints that he keeps missing Don't have to think about it I Wanna kiss and Everything around it but he's too distant I wanna feel his body I can't resist it I know my hidden looks can be deceiving But how obvious should a girl be? I was taken by the early conversation piece And I really like the way that he respect me I've been waiting patiently for him to come and get it I wonder if he knows that he can say it and I'm with it I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning Catch this opportunity so you and me could feel it 'cos If you're ready for me boy You'd better push the button and let me know Before I get the wrong idea and go You're gonna miss the freak that I control I'm busy showing him what he's been missing I'm kind of showing off for his full attention My sexy ass has got him in the new dimension I'm ready to do something to relieve this mission After waiting patiently for him to come and get it He came on through and asked me if I wanted to get with him I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning Won't miss this opportunity so you and me could feel it 'cos If you're ready for me boy You'd better push the button and let me know Before I get the wrong idea and go You're gonna miss the freak that I control If you're ready for me boy You'd better push the button and let me know Before I get the wrong idea and go You're gonna miss the freak that I control I've been dropping so many hints You’re still not getting it Now that you’ve heard everything I have to say Where we gonna go from here? After waiting patiently for him to come and get it He came over and asked me if I wanted to get with him I knew I had my mind made up from the very beginning Won't miss this opportunity so you and me could feel it 'cos If you're ready for me boy You'd better push the button and let me know Before I get the wrong idea and go You're gonna miss the freak that I control If you're ready for me boy You'd better push the button and let me know Before I get the wrong idea and go You're gonna miss the freak that I control (I control) If you're ready for me boy (For me boy) You'd better push the button and let me know Before I get the wrong idea and go (Oh, oh) You're gonna miss the freak that I control Ohhhhhhhh Ohhhhh Ohhhhhh

yuletide.... etc

Christmas time once again.... everyone's getting super excited about it, infact I am but not as excited I was back then... I don't have anything against christmas, it's just that sometimes, people value the superficial and neglects the sense and true spirit of it, though, I enjoyed it as well, the shopping, the gifts and the Food..... but as we grow up, we perceived things differently.... but i don't wanna spill the season without posting my wish list... it's not for you to select, it's me wanting to get some of these as months goes on....

1. PSP
-as always

2. iPod Nano
-who can resist?

3.Sonny Ericson w800i
-who can afford 20k?

4. Escada's Ashes
-wanting more...

5. Diesel shoulder bag
-ok na ung fake... (reserved na to from emill.. hehehe)

6. Laptop
-dapat ung Apple

7. Fossil watch
-ung leather

8. Killer loop
-shades that ive wanted since highschool

9. HOme theatre showcase
-I must be dreaming......

10. Lacoste sneakers
-dapat ung red... wala akong size sa color green, sana this time meron na

11. trip to Disneyland.. Hongkong

nah.... dreaming is over... who doesn't want christmas? and the superficial...

Gale Harold

Mesmerized before with Ryan Phillipe's potrayal of "Sebastian" in Cruel Intentions, Hooked up every Tuesday nights with Sarah Jessica Parker's show, Followed numerous Art Films of Gael Garcia Bernal, And suddenly, here comes another character that dramatically caught my attention... Gale Harrold.... Leading actor in a very unique T.V. series that was shown in U.S. for 5 long years. He was also seen in several films. Gale Harold played as Brian Kinney in the T.V. series. He potrays a role of an Account Executive in a Huge Advertising Company in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. He has a character of a free bird uncontedtedly floating in reverie and wanted to saor . Brian Kinney is an epitome of narcism but once you got to know the life behind the good looks, ull be hooked up and ull then realized how good sometimes to be "self-loving:" as if we owns the world.......

EVER AFTER

by Bonnie Bailey
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Three years ago my journey began
Chasing down this cure, no plan in hand
Just your pulse, my racing guide in the dark
Just knowing with conviction from the start
The moment your eyes made an introduction
I felt my second violent breath of life
Flawless to the point of being godlyY
et I fell hard for your imperfections

And now we’re slightly weathered, we’re slightly worn
Our hands grip together eye to eye through the storm yet
I still believe in ever after with you
Coz life is a pleasure with you by my side
And there ain’t no current in this river we can’t ride
I still believe in ever after with you

Nothing compares to the good times
Feels like we’re floating when the rest have to climb
You made me believe in love and not the perfect kind
A real messy beautiful twisted sunshine
Emotions volcanic eruptions
We both still care so we’re still alive
Tunnel vision, determination
I want you I want to make it right
You are my twisted sunshine
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lalala

Been very busy coping with the transition period that we had last week and the week ends seems to be so helpful since i've enjoyed every single minute with a "princess". I won't dwell too much on that.. i just had my time. I'm planning to go to pampanga next week to have some time with my family and friends... I had so many things to do and accomplish there... Christmass seems to be so near and it adds too much pressure on me, If I was delighted with "monetary' fulfillment last year, it seeems to be the other side of it this year for me.... I spend alot last year because of shopping, and I'm so generous bec I always share what I have, unlike now, I'm not being self-centered, it's just that I need to tighten my belt for the meantime because of a "crucial" funancial obstacle im into.... however, sun shines after the rain and hoping that early next year, things would flow swiftly.....

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire

GOB is the "first" book I laid my hands on among the 7-part installments of J.K. Rowling prior to watching the flick. I actually read the "Prisoner of Azkaban" after seeing the film, and so was the first two. As what happened to The 3rd Movie, some significant stuff were'nt included. Some are even edited which makes the film so incomplete and would leave you hanging because there were some missing links that are so related to the story as a whole.

In terms of animation/special effects, the film was superb, as always expected. The film conveys a great transition and some scenes were strictly formated to the descriptions of the Author on the book. However, there were Some scenes that was presented well because it's as if you are seeing what you've imagined when your reading the book. Specially the The Hungarian-tail dragon(was showd as described in the book), cahsing Harry potter. I had the same hypher-activeness when I was still reading the book. The same with the Quidditch cup tournament (but some scenes were edited.. actually, almost all)... well, let me not spoil everything, you might not have seen it yet. Just see it yourself, that's just it for now

I'm looking forward on 2007 for the 5ty book (which I just finished a couple of months ago and as for the new one which will be filmed on 2008, I'm still reading it)

"Cedric was a person who exemplified many of the qualities that distinguish Hufflepuff house. He was a good and loyal friend, a hard worker, he valued fair play. His death has affected you all, whether you knew him well or not. I think that you have the right, therefore, to know exactly how it came about. Cedric Diggory was murdered by Lord Voldemort. It is my belief, however, that the truth is generally preferable to lies, and that any attempt to pretend that Cedric died as the result of an accident, or some sort of blunder of his own, is an insult to his memory..."
"Remember Cedric. Remember, if the time should come when you have to make a choice between what is right and what is easy, remember what happened to a boy who was good, and kind, and brave, because he strayed across the path of Lord Voldemort. Remember Cedric Diggory." (GF37)

.........

"No pain is greater when love is unreciprocated
Like needle without thread piercing my heart unabated
When you chose to lie, I just can’t see myself alive
Thousands of miles away Oceans and mountains apart
But I see you standing here a ghost and specter of sort
Why can’t you just see that you & I are meant to be?
Love lost is all I have The more I yearn, the more I starve
Love lost when you go How could you do me wrong?
Have we come to this? Fire without passion nor soul
Touch me now, my darling You used to love me so
Love lost is all I have The less I see, the less I grieve
Love lost, that’s what we’ve been I adore you, is that a sin?
No pain is sweeter when there’s hope of true love
Like needle piercing my heart Shower me with your adoring eyes
When you chose to lie I choose to love you more "

*****this is an excerpt from one of my friends from a friend-finder web page, it somehow went deep down on my senses......

dont u forget about us..

(by Mariah Carey)

Don't forget about us

Don't baby, don’t baby,don't let it go

No baby, no baby, no baby no

Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go

My baby boy...

(Verse I)

Just let it die

With no goodbyes

Details don't matter

We both paid the price

Tears in my eyes

You know sometimes

It'd be like that baby(Bridge I)

Now every time I see you

I pretend I'm fineW

hen I wanna reach out to you

But I turn and

I walk and I let it ride

Baby I must confess

We were bigger than anything

Remember us at our best

And don't forget about

(Chorus)

Late nights, playin' in the dark

And wakin' up inside my arms

Boy, you'll always be in my heart and

I can see it in your eyes

You still want it So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience

Nothing can compare to your first true love

So I hope this will remind you

When it's for real, it's forever

So don't forget about us

(Verse II)

Oh they say

That you're in a new relationship

But we both know

Nothing comes close to

What we had, it perseveres

That we both can't forget it

How good we used to get it

(Bridge II)

There's only one me and you

And how we used to shine

No matter what you go through

We are one, that's a fact

That you can't deny

So baby we just can't let

The fire pass us by

Forever we'd both regret

So don't forget about(

Chorus)

(Rap)

And if she's got your head all messed up now

That's the trickery

She'll wanna have like you know

how this lovin' used to be

I bet she can't do like me

She'll never be

MC

Baby don't you,

don't you forget about us

(Chorus x2)

Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go

No baby, no baby, no baby no

Don't baby, don't baby,

don't let it go

When it's for real, it's forever

So don't forget about us.

for my bee.........

Where to stand...

Moving on is a necessity for someone who has been into different obstacle, because apparently, life must go on. We don't wanna be stucked in whatever unlikely occurence we might had.

I just realized that to further help you for a better recovery is to have a peace of mind. Something that no one can ever give you but yourself. Regardless of other's helpful advice, you still need to think of the things that calms you, not only emotionaly, but also spiritually. By doing that you'll further cultivate your own own self, and your own desires.

You have to evaluate yourself regarding the past days/months you're into that situation and try to realize if you were able to learn something. It is one of the things you need to thank for because you have achieved something. That after all, it is not a mess, that it (the despair) gave you something that you can use in the fututre, that it made you stronger.

Sometimes we always put blame (................to be continued)

A whole new world....

It is always a good feeling to wake up early in the morning with a smile and knowing that you have another long day ahead, Another right time to start up for a new beginning.

I'm now part of a new company which I am still working as a trainee, and it's good to know that the people I'm currently with are nice and easy to mingle with. i already have new set of friends that I usually hang out during breaks. I also want to mention the new workplace. It is still far from my place, it's in Q.C. but it is definitely fine than the previous workplace I had.

I'm also pleased to learn about the program that I'm into. It is an Internet Service Provider (ISP) in the states. Some of the task are the same with the one i had but the calls, I guess, are a bit calm and simple. No more Troubleshooting and upselling.

ode to my heart

If we could only decide for other people, if we can only teach our hearts, if we can only pretend that we are happy............. but we cannot... we can only decide for ourself, by folllowing what our hearts desire.. it's a matter of choosing what's right and what's inside of us bursts out..... we can smile, even we're sad, we can decieve other people with what we can show, but never ourselves....yes, we can show smile yet we can't show joy... If only we can conceal everything what we felt, but we cannot.... there's always truth...

When I saw you with someone else, i thought i lost you
but I thought we can forget everything and start a new
but it was late to know that this would only tear us apart
you won me back, but no longer my heart

if only i can teach my heart, i'll rather stay
but I'm only human and can not play a game we cannot potray
everynight i cried for the pain i can no longer erase
if only i can, then ill not feel this solace.............

Last August, Edmund or mon, my Convergy's co-worker, flew to Chicago to stay there for good since his wife was a registered nurse and they had a good opportunity to go there without any difficulty of convincing the US Embassy to entrust them a US Visa. Then, Last Sunday, October 12, Elgene, my highschool and drinking buddy, invited us on his "despedida" party because he also decided to go to San Diego to seek better opportunity.... we had fun and we had a semi-reunion that time. And then Just this very moment, Madel, mads, or "madeldel", also held her despedida party here in Angeles City because she will be going to Ontario, Canada because her family decided to migrate there....

I really cannot describe the feeling of "someone" close to you will now be "out-of-reach". It's not the same thing when I decided to go to Baguio and sacrificed not to see my friends for a long time. Baguio is just a 5-7 hours away from Angeles City. America is 13 hours away... through Airways...

What I am pointing out is that, people tends to go to other countries to seek fortunes, better living, which they won't achieved by staying in this country. We just have to face the reality that you really have to leave you love-ones because it is no longer possible for you to reach the life that dreamt of when you were youg by staying here... The Economy, politics, society, poverty, and alot more...

Next year, Mary Ann will be leaving for japan.. Emill, my bestfriend, is also planning to got to Japan. by December, Sheryl will be going to Dubai too. Not to forgot my sister, whose now in Paris. And me, I'm open to any possibilities of going abroad, but I would like to stay here as much as possible, hoping that everything would change.....

green day

A year has passed after that very tragic incident that shattered my world. It has been a year since I played so stupid infront of that s2pid person.. I guess the bitterness still exist in me but the feeling has been swept thru time.... where am I now ?... After every storm, there's always a rainbow... but why am i still hoping for that rainbow to come into my word? Haven't i learned anything from that traumatic moment of my life? i guess so, because that rain still pours into me as I travel the new life I've choosed to dealt with.... Guess life's really full of surprises... u'll never know that you're being examined if you learned or you are still doing the silly things u had before.... if life is like an examination or a final test, and u can only take it once, definitely I'll flunk! Sickening may it seems, but that's how does reality strucks me everytime I delve in to this kind of situation.. how can i let myself be hurt, how can't i fight the way life slapps me... pathetic it may sound... but I'm weakening, if love is everything then why can't it heal the wounds of my sorrows, why can't it take me to reverie and sing me such a delectable songs.... why can't we undewrstand each other if we really love each other... why am i being hurt for every insolent words i hear from u? y can't you give me the happiness and joy that a person u loved can give?.....

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Where I've been?

I can't recall when was the last time I lay my hands on my blog.. it's really been a long time... as far as I recall, I was still employed and I haven't been diagnosed for a killer virus... yes, things changed so drastically that I don't even know how am i goin to start narrating the events that shattered my world for the last 60 days

I was confined at the Angeles University Foundation Medical Hospital after some series of test done at he Makati Medical Center. 3 days of medical check-ups due to unpredictable colds i had for several days.... and so i decided to be confined in pampanga because i have my parents and friends there to accompany me at the hospital. It is my first time to exprience to stay at the hospital for a treatment. the last time I've been there was when my mom was diagnosed of a cancer and months before she passed, she need to undergo operation so i need to be there by her side.... few years after, it was me being laid on the same hospital on the same floor as hers... fortunately it was not the same room.... coz i dunno what to do if that happened... luckily, i survived, it was announced as stage 1 of the killer virus which is dengue.. I stayed there for couple of days... thanks to my friends who visited me, no need to mention you guys, coz u were already famous for u were included on some of my previouse posts.. namihasa na kayo.. hehehehe....

And after that one helluva tiring, boring, and scary moment of my life, I then, decided to quit from my work, finally. After some considerations, i then filed for a resignation effective immediately which permits me to use my remaining vacation leave... and if you were actually reading my posts for the previouse months, you'll definitely understand me, and my reason why I decided to quit that soon despite of not having a "fallback". Yup, I haven't applied to a different Company yet, but I am now on the process of trying my luck to a much better working environment, and i still have to consider some factors before delviong into another decisions... there... so it means i don't have the means of having some "gimiks" and I still need to use my free days to rest...

As for my life as of now, I'm enjoying the "free" life... not fr0m my bee, but free from work, form all those "mada*uckin" calls.... ciao!!!!!!

share ko lang....

1.are u serious when it comes to relationships?
~yes I am, i see to it that i fulfill my responsibilities if i am committed to someone.. wlang magrereact.. i've changed.. hehehehe.

2. are you afraid of commitments?
~ before yes.. coz i dont wanna be hurt.. but now, ive realized that no matter how hard it is, in the end u can tell urself that uve shared ur life and uve somehow touched someone else's heart....

3. are u a risk taker?
~ yup, i go on to the extremes, i love excitements

4. wat can u say abt long distance relationships?
- it would not just work....

5. can u luv a person hu doesnt love u?
~nope, i can't

6. do actions speak louder than words?
~ yes,,, there are things that u just can't hide....

7. hav u felt/found true love?
~ yup, alot of times, but things just don't go the way we expect them to be..........

8. how can u say that a person luvs you?
~ i don't know, i just feel it.. i have a very sensitive instinct on this

9. are you good in handling relationships?
~ i dunno, ask them....

10. are you willing to give everything?
~ i used to.. i end up like im nobody...with no wings to fly......... (sigh..)

11. best thing uve learned from loving?
~ that it is the most wonderful thing that can happen to a person.... but it would also painful if u don't know how to handle it...

12. do u demand ur luv1 to change into somethingthat he/ she's not?
~ i used to but ive learned that u cannot change someone though love can move mountains...

13. wud u let go of some1 u love?
~If I have to.. if it will be better for the both of us...

14. are u a one woman/man & vice versa type ofperson?
~ I would like to convince my self that I am.... but I'm only a human and i cannot hold the future....

15. Is sex important in a relationship?
~ yes, it would determine if u a are compatible... that there's a rythm....

16. how do u express ur luv to sm1?
~ there are so many ways.. it depends how would u take them into action...

17. wat are the major reason of a break up?
~differences, third party, immaturity...

18. most important ingredient in a relationship?
~ trust

19. have you ever regret loving someone?
~ everybody does after the painful split-up, but we end up apprecaiting the person instead for making us strong....

20. one thing u hate about love?
~ that it does fade.......

21. one thing u like about love?
~ i agree with jarro. (the one who posted this..) because of the "natural high"

22. worst thing u did to a love one?
~ being sarcastic..... coz i don't wanna show them that i am weak.. i tried concealing it by being sarcastic.. pa badboy effect!!!

23. are you in love?
- always.......

24. with whom?
~ not just with a person, but with other things....

25. do u have a bf/gf?
~ yup

26. why?~ it should not be questioned.. coz ur inlove, u do fell in love, that's just it.. u enjoy the feeliing of being inlove....

27. do you get tired of loving?
~ nope, even it brings sorrow, i always look forward for the "next best thing"

28. who has changed your view about loving?
~ all of em.. i fell, i cried... and ive learned...

stay

When i think about the time
I believe I knew the ways of love
All the chances that I took
I thought i knew it all
Even when I wonder how
I made it through it all I know
I do it all over again

chorus*
Stay with me
You & I would always be
Close to each other
Stay with me Loving you is so easy
Please wont you stay with me

When I look into your eyes
I don't need to hear the words I
love I can feel it in my heart
You have a way with me &
I feel so good each time
I hear you say to me
Living each day with me
Is all that you need chorus


** Stay with me
You & I would always be
Close to each other
Stay with me
Loving you is so easy
I want you always

bridge:
Stay with me
Everyday with me
Stay with me Stay....

Coda:
Stay,
forever & ever
forever & ever outro:
Stay with me
Loving you is so easy
Please wont you stay with me

it's been a long time since I found myself alone again.. i mean, i've been accompanied most of the time by my peers, family or a partner.... and guess what, even im commited, i just had a thought of being alone would once again cross my path... i am not used to it... to eat ur dinner at malls alone or go to grocery store.. but i suddenly felt like going "fully" independent by facing the fear of solidarity... the first step of overcome fear is by facing them.. and that's what i did.. i went to a grocry store alone.. i did it in the past.. nost of the time in baguio when i was just in college... but in those times, i do not have any other choice.. but what happened last saturday was a big deal for me.. u know that someone can help u and has the responsibility to accompany u,,, bt on the other side, my bee is still working for their thesis so i cannot rely too much because of the work loads of having thesis...

as for work, we've been decreasing in numbers since the day they announced that our team will be dispersed.. unfortunately, due to that demotivating event, some decided to shift their paths and decided to leave... one of them will be migrating to Chicago..which is my closest team mate... some move out to a company just a few step away... and there, 5 of us remained.. the 2 went to coaches corner, and the 3 of us on a regular shift but with different team leader...

cool

by gwen stefani






It's hard to remember
how it felt before
Now I found the love of my life...
Passes things get more comfortable
Everything is going right
And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that
you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
We used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the pain
Remember Harbor Boulevard
The dreaming days
where the mess was made
Look how all the kids have grown
We have changed but we're still the same
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
And I'll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles,
and now we're hangin' out
with your new boyfriend
So far from where we've been
I know we're cool

sleeps with butterflies...

tori amos






Airplanes
Take you away again
Are you flying
Above where we live
Then I look up a glare in my eyes
Are you having regrets about last night
I'm not but I like rivers that rush in
So then I dove in
Is there trouble ahead
For you the acrobat
I won't push you unless you have a net
You say the word
You know I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don't mind
I don't hold on
To the tail of your kite
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly then boy
Balloons
Look good from on the ground
I fear with pins and needles around
We may fall then stumble
Upon a carousel
It could take us anywhere
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly boy

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SiX...

heto na naman ako
nag-papakasenti sa iyo
di ko naman alam kung para saan ito
basta ang alam ko, masaya ako

di ko man maipakita sa iyo
siguro nmn alam mo naman ito
ikaw lang ang nagpapa-saya sa akin bawat minuto
kahit hindi ka man kumbinsido

nasa pang anim na tayo
sanay magtagal pa ito
kahit away bati na parang pusa't aso
mhal kita at mamahalin, ito'y pangako...........

it may sound a bit cheesy, but this is how i feel, this is me, many would react, but i care less because this is how i can express what i feel right now.... like im floating into reverie.....

Orange and Lemon

"Hanggang Kailan"

Labis na naiinip
Nababagot sa bawat saglit
Kapag naaalala ka
Wala naman akong magawa

Umuwi ka na baby
Di na ako sanay ng wala ka
Mahirap ang mag-isa
At sa gabi'y hinahanap hanap kita

Hanggang kailan ako maghihintay
Na makasama kang muli
Sa buhay kong puno ng
Paghihirap
At tanging ikaw lang ang
Pumapawi sa mga luha
Naglalagay ng ngiti sa mga labi

Di mapigilang mag-isip
O baka sa tagal
Mahulog ang loob mo sa iba
Nakaka balisa
Knock on wood wag naman sana

we should be responsible for all our actions...

this is what I've learned from the 23 years of my existence... but i was stunned to realized that i still don't have it by heart...

last tuesday, an e-mail that was sent by me to a yahoo group that caused a collission between the two of us... it is my fault.. whatever way ur gonna percieve it, it's all wrong, it's not proper, i wasn't raised to be like that, and it would not cused any good to my morale...

It is however nice to know that I have someone who was blessed with understanding and patience and provided me with great consideration... if only the Filipino people would also do the same, to give the President a chance, for whatever mistake she had, then we can see the good deeds of her governemnt... but all we do is to look at the bad sides, the flaws, and we didn't gave her any single chance... everybody do committ mistake but it is no longer decent to oust every president we have just because we wants to.. for all I know, it is just for their own "asses"!!!

Yes, one wrong step leads to another... it is a long, continous and unended cycle. Just one stupid mistake can crash you down....

constantly

I knew it was there
Though I tried to hide it
The feeling just kept on shining through
Haven’t known you that long
So I try to deny it
But the feeling was much too
Much too strong

Could this be love
Deep down inside
Tearing me apart
I feel it in my heart

Constantly, you’re on my mind
Thinking about you all the time
I can’t sleep no matter what I do
I just keep on thinking ‘bout you

Why do I feel this way
When I know you have someone
That you’re seeing each and everyday
Should I play this game
Of just being your friend but i know that’s not where I want it to end

How could this be wrong
When it feels so strong
Tearing me apart
I feel it in my heart
No I don’t want to start
No trouble
Between you and I and you lover
But I must tell you what I’m going through
Everytime you walk by
I see love in your eyes

circles.....

time's running so fast, we always had small quarrels that leads to confrontations.. but fortunately, we were able to fix things and we become stronger.. hope it will be till the end... it just freaks me out to realized that, waht if there will be an end on this... I don't know if i would be able to make it without you!!

As for my job, well, it's quite the same... im so tired of the daily routines.. imagine being absent for 8 days out of 10-day cut-off? what would you expect would be my paycheck on the 30th? hmmmmmmmnn...

ive applied to different companies for the past few days, and i recieve positive feedbacks, but i have to disregard them because im still waiting for another job who can provide me with more benefits... self-centered me.. hehehe

I'm so glad evertyhing seems to be normal.. hope this would last for a long time

breakdown,,,

Once again, I let someone hurt me... it was so deep... the person u once looke-up to, the person u cherished with all your life, and that will also be the person who will give you the taste of bitterness... the person you've trusted most.. and the source of your strength... how can u stand now when that person who used to stood by you left you in the midst of obscurity... I felt so harrased, so manipulated. I was caught off-guarded, with no wings to fly and destiny's seems so dark.... you once thought me how to love not knowing ur only there to teach me and not to be there to share it with me..... I hope u are now contended of what u've made me... weak and helpless.. hoping that death will lead me to where i don't feel this pain... somewhere no you to hurt me...



you called yesterday, to basically say
that you care for me but, that you're just not in love
immediately i pretended to be feeling similarly
and led you to believe i was okay
to just walk away from the one thing
that's so unyielding and sacred to me

chorus:
well i guess i'm trying to be nonchalant about it
and i'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you
but in reality i'm slowly losing my mind
underneath the guise of a smile gradually i'm dying inside
friends ask me how i feel, and i lie convincingly
cause i don't want to reveal the fact that i'm suffering
so i wear my disguise 'til i go home at night
and turn down all the lights and then i break down and cry

so what do you do when somebody you're so devoted to
suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven't
got a clue
of the pain that rejection is putting you through
do you cling to your pride and sing "i will survive"
do you lash out and say "how dare you leave this way"
do you hold on in vain as they just slip away

.....left in the middle

Ive told u before that if ur gonna leave, make sure that everything's settled and everything would be fine, on both sides... but then again, u left at the time which i needed someone... in a point which i do not have any shoulder that I could cry on.....

You've choose that path.. but the suffer's mine. U left, but it was I who has to cry....

all i ask is to spare me a little time... but u decided to give it to others.. self-centered me, but that's all i ask, and u've hesitated.. i was the one who decided on this.. but it is so much easy for you, coz maybe all u want is this.... to leave...

i once asked u, if u won something, and i was ur prize, wat wud I be.. u suddenly said, "PARA LANG AKONG NANALO SA JUETENG SA IYo".....

ooppss!!!!

I just talked to my operations manager and i was given an opportunity to take time to think it over before jumping out of the Company. Yes, even with some shortomming of the Comapany, I can say that I'm proud to bepart of thte one of the Biggest outsourcing Industry in the country, so I had a second thought of leaving soon... hence, I still have some plans of moving...... and to all my ka team mates... salamat pa rin sa support.......

end...

I've decided, I quit. it's a long story, but I have to face it... it came to me at the least expected time.. but I have to go on... there would be several options for me..


(im the white guy, and the tallest....)

Working with such nice and very professional people gave me a very hard time for I just cannot leave them behind... I've been with them since the earliest period of "team Jengoloids"

I've wrote them a letter, but it is to give my deepest appreciation and letting them know how
I became happy working with them...

5, sinko, lima, five, V,

how I feel so alive
coz u and me, we're on five
tot that we will never survive
but we end up on a jive

u said u love me more
like a fast growing sycamore
and guess what's instore?
my heart for you that can never be tore

I'm crying every night
for i don't want you 2 b outta sight
though, it is not right
coz u have ur own life

but hope u ndrstnd
missing u i cnt outstand
but i know in urs i will land
and will keep me so tight in ur hand

u just have to be true
and i will never be blue
surely nothings gonna be new
for i will always love you.....

=' (

CATER 2 U

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
[Beyonce]
Baby, I see you workin' hard
Wanna let you know that I'm proud
Let you know I admire what you do
Don't know if I need to reassure you
My life would be purposeless without you
If I want it (you got it)
When I ask you (you provide it)
You inspire me to be better (ooh)
You challenge me for the better (ooh, ooh)
Sit back and let me pour out my love letter
Let me help you take off your shoes
Untie your shoe strings, take off your cufflinks
What you wanna eat, Boo, let me feed you
Let me run your bath water
Whatever you desire, I'll aspire
Sing you a song, turn the game on
I'll brush your hair, help you put your do-rag on
Wanna foot rub, want a manicure
Baby, I'm yours
I wanna cater to you, boy
[chorus]
Let me cater to you
Cause baby, this is your day
Do anything for my man
Baby, you blow me away
I got your slippers, your dinner, your dessert
And so much more, anything you want
Let me cater to you
Inspire me from the heart
Can't nothing tear us apart
You're all I want in a man
I put my life in your hands
I got your slippers, your dinner, your dessert
And so much more, anything you want
I wanna cater to you
[Kelly]
Baby, I'm happy you're home
Let me hold you in my arms
I just wanna take the stress away from you
Making sure your that I'm doing my part
Boy, is there something you need me to do
If you want (I got it)
Just say the word I (I'm a try it)
I know whatever I'm not fulfillin'
Another woman is willing
I'm gonna fulfill you, mind, body and spirit
I promise ya, I keep myself up
Remain the same chick you fell in love with
I'll keep it tight, keep my figure right
I'll keep my hair fixed, rockin' the hottest outfits
When you come home late, tap me on my shoulder
I'll roll over
Baby, I heard you, I'm here to serve you
If it's love you need, to give it is my joy
All I wanna do
Is cater to you, boy
[chorus]
Let me cater to you
Cause baby, this is your day
Do anything for my man
Baby, you blow me away
I got your slippers, your dinner, your dessert
And so much more, anything you want
Let me cater to you
Inspire me from the heart
Can't nothing tear us apart
You're all I want in a man
I put my life in your hands
I got your slippers, your dinner, your dessert
And so much more, anything you want
I wanna cater to you
[Michelle]
I wanna give my breath, my strength, my will to be there
That's the least I can do, let me cater to you
Through the good, the bad (the bad), the ups and the downs
I'll still be here for you, let me cater to you
Cause you're beautiful (you're beautiful), I love the way you are (you are)
Fulfill your every desire, your wish is my command
I wanna cater to my man
Your heart, so pure, your love shines through
The darkness, we'll get through
(So much) so much of me is you (is you)
I wanna cater to my man
[chorus]
Let me cater to you
Cause baby, this is your day
Do anything for my man
Baby, you blow me away
I got your slippers, your dinner, your dessert
And so much more, anything you want
Let me cater to you
Inspire me from the heart
Can't nothing tear us apart
You're all I want in a man
I put my life in your hands
I got your slippers, your dinner, your dessert
And so much more, anything you want
I wanna cater to you

24 hours of loneliness

Not to see you or hear from you within 24 hours is new to me, eversince you became mine. I am desperate to know why becoz im not used to this kind of situation.. me without you by my side is like a life without the whole world.. you said goodbye, but never that I kissed your lips nor felt your body next to mine.... and you flewn away.... so far.... that I thought you will be back soon,.... but it never happened at all, I'd wished and hoped that I will be hearing your voice that same day but all falls into pieces that time had passed and there's no you... something I'd never had any idea that it would come our way..

Still on the agony and of false hopes that tomorrow when I opened up my eyes, I'll see you though I must admitt that I put too much anticipation.. but the pain of truth comes back into a painful reality as I realized that you'll never be mine again... that u've already left me here, lifeless...

I never though our life would be like this, That I put you to that pedestal, above, so high, with the stars that shines upon me, the light that glitters on my path but now I have to accept the fact thatI can not be with you on that highness, that I have to submerged myself into these obscurity. Solitudely, I can no longer be with you coz u were with the gods and the godesses.... and I was left here so alone.. so afraid...

That 24 hours of loneliness happened without me noticing it... because you became my life, the air that I breathe, the blood that runs on my veins and the smile upon my face... and then you're gone... How do you expect me to move-on with this life I used to have while I was with you... neither I had a choice, but to go on.... and someday, I can tell the world, that I fell in love, and that is the most happiest thing that ever happened to me since the day i find love...

another 10 things....

10 things I want to achieve (as in right now!)

1.Go home. sleep (so cold coz it's raining)
-yup, and i have to prepare coz we will be on the night shift, again! so I need to take a sleep

2.Go home to pampanga (still sleep)
-i missed pampanga especially when raining...( i can't wait for my vacation leave!)

3.Buy a new jacket (for office works)
-all my jackets are not to be paired with my corporate attires because they're too casual...

4. Watch "The Goblet of Fire" and "Chronicles of Narnia"
-name it, I've seen them all (Batman, Mr. and Mrs. Smith, San ka man, and most of the films that was shown last week..) and I'm one of the million fanatics(kiddos) who's more than excited to these two gigantic flicks... hope i can get a better seat ...(",)

5.Visit Baguio (fix some stuff)
-i miss this place too!!!!. can't wait to see my old friends, and the things that I used to have when I'm still staying there..

6.Get my bday present from aby
-yes, yes, it's been 3 months since my bday and I haven't got my present from her (which she insisted.. not me).. but wait, my xmas gift wasn't given either!

7.read and finish my books (the Alchemist and Tuesdays with Morrie)
-I just finished harry potter (finally) and my baby bought a book which was "Tuesdays with Morrie" and i hope i would be able to read it but because of the heavy rain this past few days, I just end up curled on my bed to take a nap... so i must defy the temptation

8.Buy new clothes (coz i run out of it)
-I'm not a fashion-perk and I'm not particular with brands.. for as long as I'm comfortable and presentable, I can wear it. But I actually run out of clothes and I have to make them as an investment or a tangible proof that I'm already earning.... though I don't earn that much... (coz i really can't save coz i spend alot!)

9. Look for a new place...
-im planning to move out from that "bodega"! I have to look for something better...

10. Get a PSP!!!!
-no comments needed! = )

Im so deeply touched by the words from my beybee's blog... I dunno, I don't have to feel guilt but I felt so sad the moment I browsed the blog. It seems that we really hurt each other. But on the other hand, I felt at ease because we've finally picked all the peices.. I hope we still work things out..... i feel you bee

summer's gone... still I'm sranded...

As I woke up this morning to go to work (I usually woke up at 3 am coz my work starts at 5) I suddenly felt like it's gonna rain so damn hard... and that premonition came into life.. I got so irritated for the fact that i have to come to work early and was soaked in the pouring rain... horrible.. so much...

Sentiments flowd over our team's yahoo group for it was the first day of our dispersion. I never had any second thougth to have my share so I write down my own say about the group breakup. And that's how I started my day.. and so was my week....

I'm getting confused on how to get a resolution with my dillema. Should I end this? Should I look for a greener pasteur over the fields of several Company's willing to offer such lucrative job? Or should I let my self stuck as I just stay loyal since I'm a year old in this Job? still undecided.. but I know something good's about to unfold.... I'm getting excited..... I'm feeling it already...

Anyway congrats to myself.. I stayed for a year on this "battlefield".

missin' you..

well, must na? I've been thinking the past few days and asking this question to myself... or should I say, I should ask this to those whom I really miss... those who knows me inside-out, those whom I shared my best days with... those I've trusted the most... my friends.

It's been a year since I've been here in Manila and it seems I've been stuck here for almost a long decade now.... Yah, I've been missing the old days.. the school.. the studies... the bonding... the projects.. the "extra-curricular activities".. all those stuff...

Minsan din kasi, (even H.S. days..), Ive became so dependent sa mga kaibigan ko... minsan nga di ako maka galaw ng wala sila... and as what I've mention, even I'm a year old here in Manila... namimiss ko rin ang pina pamper ka ng mga kaibigan mo...

kasi naman, di na sila nagpaparamdam.. whether ung mga highschool friends ko or yung mga kasama ko sa college (although hindi maikakaila na meroong tampuhang naganap between us). Nagkita kami kahapon ni Aby (college friend ko) sa Greenbelt to attend a mass, then she let me see the pics (that was taken last december on our christmas party) and it was the pics when the barkada's complete... no conflicts or whatsoever.. then narealize ko na, kalahating taon na pla un... na nakakaraan...

ba't ko ba naisip tong mga 'to? ba't ko ba bigla clang na-alala? to think na choosing to stay in manila would automatically separate me from them?.... kasi naman nasa Manila ako lately(University belt) and it's almost the start of the new schoolyear.. I just can't help but to look back on the days that we were still together.. when we were still complete...

"Gone are the days when we were young

and words are left un-sung,

the mem'ries we've shared was ours to keep

not to burried them on the ground that is so deep...."

I know naman that we really have to move on... pero u cannot just erase those times na nagkasama kayo diba? siguro nga 'time heals a wound'... but according to "Dumbledore" na "some wounds run deep for the healing..."

according sa work.. ayun, dispersd ang team namen and napunta pa ko sa taong never kong na-realized that he existed.. mean na kung mean.. pero ganun lang talaga... minsan napaka-odd... u'll be in situations you least expect them to happen...

as for my life as a whole.. it's moving forward.. hoping this things happening right now to lasts.... into eternity.. I'm happy (kahit namimiss ko mga klaibigan ko) di lang din ako siguro ng sanay na mag-isa... sana di nya ko iwan even with my flaws.. kung iwan man nya ko sana ung matatangap ko ang dahilan.. coz im giving myself na... without any hesitations.. this is just me.. u just have to see me.. deeply...

"I want you to see me naked

and my soul shoul you awakened

for that's the only reason to understand me

that Im with you with everything... endlessly..."

can't wait to see it... 

clips from the new movie of the 5th book Harry Potter, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire 

fin'lly

hey hey hey.... I've never posted on my blog in ages.. well, as usual, I've been dealing with alot of stuff right now... weather on my work or just for my personal life... Working in a call center "does" eat much of your time that's why I have to find ways to atleast unleashed the boredome and stress from my work... Well, I haven't been into any unusualness the past few weeks but just for some accidentally adventures (or shud i call misadventures...) that I've encounter with the very sizzling summer of 05. I'm just with my bee most of the times and once in a while I seldomly go home to visit my family.

Yah, many would react... I haven't visiting or meeting most of my friends (except for jun2 that visited me few weeks ago..) due to this "so-called hectic" life. As for my past time.. I'm still reading Harry potter 5. yah, it's been a couple of months since I started reading the book. yah, it is draggy.. and I consider it "the most" less interesting book as compared to the other first four installments of the 7-part novel by Rowling but the thing is, I'm now at the climax of the book and I started to give it a little attention... and speaking of books, I'm also currently reading "the alchemist" that I've burrow from my team mate and so far it's getting nice as i flip down the pages...

And as for otehr stuff, well, what else?... ah yah.. if u guys decided to leave a comment on my blog, make sure to put a name on it or anything that would give me an idea of your identity... coz i might end up taking them off my blog.... and to those who's sending me alot of messages comming from differnet number, well, nice try. You're almost on the verge of pushing me to have a new number.. so u rreally have to tab e a little harder...

as for new stuff, I've grabbed a copy of the emancipation of mimi and lemme tell you, it's one of the most beautiful record mimi has come-up with.. nice one.

And as for achievements.. well, none so far, but i had one since summer but let me just keep that to myself...

hu?

trip lang.....
look who's here!~~

this is me...

mimi
"We Belong together"

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should've let you go
I didn't know nothing I was stupid
I was foolish I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that
I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined
I'd be Sitting here beside myself
'Cause I didn't know you
'Cause I didn't know me
But I thought
I knew everything I never felt
The feeling that I'm feeling now
Now that I don't
Hear your voice
Or have your touch and kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side
Right here, 'cause baby

[Chorus:]
When you leftI lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please
We belong together

Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody there
We belong together

I can't sleep at night
When you are on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Singing to me
'If you think you're lonely now
'Wait a minute
This is too deep, too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface
I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things
CryingTrying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of what
I'm feeling insideI need you
Need you back in my life baby

[Chorus]
[Repeat chorus]
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please
We belong together
Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
Baby nobody else
We belong together

"Hide and Seek"

She's so fabolous!!! I really admire her as an actress. Ive first seen her at the movie, "I am Sam"

Dakota Fanning

Robert Deniro and Dakota Fanning in "hide and seek"

This film is one helluva Scary, full of mystery and twist. It's plot would tickle your imagination and the story itself would let you move you at the end of your seat. Hope you'll be able to see "hide and seek" as well.

me

WhAt'S d FuZz!!

I haven't updated my blog in ages now. Kasi naman our system shuts off since the 2nd week of April and that's the reason why I haven't updated my blog wihtin "eternity". Well, I've been dealing with a total stress with my job. They came out with these ne Metric scale scheme (which I'm not really happy 'bout it) and we have to make some adjustments for us to cope with these changes and it freaks me out whenever I got a low score, and how can I forget signing up a "final warning" because of excessive "tardiness"? But fortunately, it paid-off! I got a 4 for my metric tracker on the fourth week!!!!

Enough of the bragging,.. I just also wanna share that I've also met my 2nd year Highschool friends last April 12 at the Greenbelt. We just hang-out there and we gave our own share of experiences as we grew up and what kind of life we've been after that year. And hopefully, we'll be having a second gathering (a bit bigger this time) on April 30th at Angeles City. Hopefully, almost all of our close friends from II-jupiter will also be there. And also, Paolo's also with us, a long time friend that went to Vancouver even before the school year ends.

The Puerto gallera didn't push through due to financial aspects and so was the Vigan and I'm deciding to go to Baguio this comming May instead. Our company's planning to have our own Outing this comming May... and it's all-expense paid! hopefully, I will be able to put pics on this blog as well so it would look a little nicer..... uhmmm, whatelse, It's our 3rd Monthsary today!!! I'm so godammn happy bout it!! iloveyoumybaby!!!!!

A friendster from my baby

i dunno what u mean by this.........

Let Me Go

3 Doors Down
One more kiss could be the best thingBut one more lie could be the worstAnd all these thoughts are never restingAnd you're not something I deserveIn my head there's only you nowThis world falls on meIn this world there's real and make believeAnd this seems real to me[Chorus]You love me but you don't know who I amI'm torn between this life I lead and where I standAnd you love me but you don't know who I amSo let me go Let me goI dream ahead to what I hope forAnd I turn my back on loving youHow can this love be a good thingWhen I know what I'm goin throughIn my head there's only you nowThis world falls on meIn this world there's real and make believeAnd this seems real to me[Chorus]You love me but you don't know who I amI'm torn between this life I lead and where I standYou love me but you don't know who I amSo let me go Just Let me goo...Let me goAnd no matter how hard I try I can't escape these things inside I know I knowww..When all the pieces fall apart You will be the only one who knowsWho knows[Chorus]You love me but you don't know who I amI'm torn between this life I lead and where I standAnd you love me but you don't know Who I amSo let me go Just let me goAnd you love me but you don'tYou love me but you don'tYou love me but you don't know who I amAnd you love me but you don'tYou love me but you don'tYou love me but you don't know me

All about Flicks (from my friendster)

All-time favorite Film
-Mystic River
-The Count of Monte Cristo
-The ever "Saga"

Favorite Movie about friendship
-Brookdown Palace
-Set-it-off

Film that never let you sleep for 2-3 nights
-the Grudge
-te Grudge 2
-the Ring

Film that made you cry
-I am Sam
-A walk to remember
-Riding in Cars

All-time favorite pinoy film
-Bata-bata paano ka ginawa
-Jologs (I like the Editing)
-Gang Land the cinematography is good)

Movie that moved u at the end of your seat
-The beach
-The Village
-Kill Bill

Film that made u sleep while watching it
-The Final Cut

Most Cheesy film
-Dreamboy/All my life/Ngayong nandito ka

Most irritating film
-Chucky
-The crow

Most Inspiring film
-The Dragonfly
-Life is Beautiful
-Passion of the Christ

Film u wished u never watched at all!
-most of the films that I watched with jun2 (specially the one with Maui Taylor and Dina Bonnevie!!)

Most Romantic film
-Something's gotta give
-Serendipity
-Nothing Hill
-50 First Date
-Simply Irrisistible
-Never Been Kissed

Most Annoying film
-the Lizzie McGuire
-Loser
-Alfie

Most Hated film
-Any film that I've watched with that silly flirt!

Most weird film
-The Crow

Best animated film
-Beauty and the Beast
-Finding Nemo
-Monster's Inc.

Film that made u laugh
-American Pie
-Can't Hardly Wait
-Never Ben Kissed
-Lemony Snickett's Series of Unfortunate Events

Most admired Actor and role
-Brad Pitt (the fight club)
-Sean Penn (I am Sam, Mystic River)
-Russel Crow (Gladiator)

Most amired Actress and role
-Drew Barrymore (riding in cars with boys)
-Julia Roberts (Mona Lisa Smile, Nothing Hill)
-Nicole Kidaman(the hours, the birth)

Favorite Fantasy film
-The Lord of the Rings (trilogy)
-Harry Potter
-The never Ending Story (1 nd 2)

Fave Film when u ur just a kid
-Home Alone 1 nd 2

Most recent Film watched
-Robots, The boogeyman

Let Bygones be bygones

There are certain things that are beyond our control. Things that you wished they never happened at all. If you could only turn back the hands of time, you'll make sure that you're not gonna do those things that you just did, so you wont regret these things. But Unfortunately, you'll never know that it is so wrong unless you've been into that situation.. Sadly, we cannot predict that youll gonna end up with these crap, there were alot of situations wherein you suffered alot without having any single idea that you'll be into that obscurity. How you wished that "time machine" do exist so we can go back to the moment when we can't even differentiate stupidity from idiocracy.

For whatever reason, these things come into our lives with purpose. Everything has it's own reason... Eventually, you'll come-up with all the answers that you need to justify your longing your question, "why the hell this happened to me?" Several consequences may happen to a person, it's up to him on how he can carry the burden and on how he can face these trials without subjecting himself to any harm.

So the best thing is that, we all have to move on. Never let the past affect you, we can learn from it but we should never let it rule our lives. Perhaps, live for the future. Look around you, alot of peole do care and loves you. If someone walked out of your life, then let it be, if that would be their chooice, but it they'll never know what they will be missing...

What might have been

Lou Pardini


Somewhere lost in the wind
I'm watching you
Sunlight touching your hair
And I remember Somehow
We said that we would never stray
But somehow we lost our way
Promises to often spoken
Are easily broken apart

I'm ready this time
I know that I'm
No longer undecided
Don't wanna be a fool wondering............
What might have been

Trace of forever lingering
Drawing me closer to you
A new beginning
Now I know
There is no doubt
I understand
Just how fragile love can be
I can't forgetY
our memory found me
Now I know where I belong.....

I'm ready this time
I know that I'm
No longer undecided
Don't wanna be a fool wondering............
What might have been

Through every day
And into the night
With only love to guide us
I'm ready to go
Cause I've got to know.....
What might have been

Let the lovin' decide
I can't run I can't hide.....
I want you to know
My heart will show
That I'm.....

Ready this time
I know that I'm
No longer undecided
Don't wanna be a fool wondering............
What might have been

I've searched everywhere
And nothing compares
When we've got love to guide us
I'm ready to go
I've got to know.....
What might have been

I'm wondering.....
What might have been
I want to know
What might have been
We're gonna find
What might have been
Oh.......I wanna know
What might have been
Oh.......What might have been
we're gonna find
What might have been
I wanna know
What might have been............
What might have been...........

Honesty

I'm just so shy coz' the last comment came from my beybi and I'm out of words when i found that out... sorry for the sarcastic words baby...

Anyway, I haven't been to alot this past few days, our relationship has it's twists and turns.. but I've been dealing alot of pressure right now in terms of my work. So many hassles yet so less priviledges... I've been doing the same old things for almost a year now andI guess, it's the right time to atleast do the right stuff ( I did, but I don't think Ive exerted my effort that much, I just let it all blow-off). How I wanted to perform well and to try harder as my team mates does, but it really pissed me if everything seems to be beyond my control.... How I wish I could enhance my job, though my promotion was still at freeze (yeah, due to my tardiness that still persist even to this right very moment). so the best thing is that Be honest by following the proper procedures so the goals will be met...


Speaking of Honesty

I, along with my baby and a friend were busily dinning at a food chain along their campus when a "golden-ninoy-aquino-faced-embedded-bill" just flewd-out from a man's pocket. I just burst out and told them what I just found out, we hurriedly went down to atleast get it before anyone does... and we took it with all our might and before i knew it, we ran as fast as we could not because it is wrong to pick it up but someone might have seen or noticed us. We just laugh out after we realized what we just did... my baby's thinkin' about the guilt of our action especially, "digital' karma's just around the corner, but I then explain that it is not our fault, if other people sees it, he may also do the same thing... so to cut it short, we decided to spend the money instead so we won't have the burden for long.. so we found ourselves watching a film entitiled, "boogyman" (creepy) at the glorieta 4 cnema and had our dinner at Food Choices...

You don't know me

"I've never tought it would come this far, I just can't say who my true friends are, so afraid you might disappear, I'm so lucky that you are here..."

This was a line from one of my favorite song, unfortunately, I forgot the singer and the title, but this is the song that I really wanna sing infront of my "better-half" right now.... Guess what, it's our 2nd monthsary today, would you believe it? it feels like it was just yesterday when we first met... How can I forget the 20 seconds? and the birthday gift? and the dinning table scene??? well let me just keep that to myself....

We've already celebrated it last night, we ate at the food choices at glorieta4 (kinda cheap... kasi naman puno lahat ng mga resto kasi naman payday) then I recieved a perfume which is Wired (one of my favorites) as a monthsary present. I haven't bought anything yet but I'm still wonderin on what should I buy, something different....

well, as usual, I will be posting a song that I really like....


"You don't know me"

by Ray Charles

You give your hand to me
And then you say, "Hello."
And I can hardly speak,
My heart is beating so.
And anyone can tell
You think you know me well.
Well, you don't know me.
(no you don't know me)
No you don't know the one
Who dreams of you at night;
And longs to kiss your lips
And longs to hold you tight
Oh I'm just a friend.
That's all I've ever been.
Cause you don't know me.
(no you don't know me)
For I never knew the art of making love,
Though my heart aches with love for you.
Afraid and shy, I let my chance go by.
A chance that you might love me too.
(love me too)You give your hand to me,
And then you say, "Goodbye."
I watched you walk away,
Beside the lucky guy
Oh, you'll never ever know
The one who loved you so.
Well, you don't know me
(For I never knew the art of making love, )
(Though my heart aches with love for you. )
Afraid and shy, I let my chance go by.
A chance that you might love me too.
(love me too)
Oh, you give your hand to me,
And then you say, "Goodbye."
I watched you walk away,
Beside the lucky guyOh,
you'll never ever know
The one who loved you so.
Well, you don't know me
(you don't love me, you don't know me)

more 2day than yesterday.. (",)

"More Today Than Yesterday"

I don't remember what day it was
I didn't notice what time it was
All I know is that I fell in love with you
And if all my dreams come true,
I'll be spending time with you

Everyday's a new day,
in love with you
With each day comes a new way, of loving you
Everytime I kiss your lips my mind starts to wonder
And if all my dreams come true,
I'll be spending time with you
I loved you more today than yesterday
But not as much as tomorrow
Ohhh, I loved you more today than yesterday
But darlin' not as much as tomorrow

Tomorrow makes each spring time just a day away
Cupid we don't need you now be on your way
Thank the lord for love like hours that grows ever stronger
And if all my dreams come true
I'll be spending time with you

Ohhh I loved you more today than yesterday
But not as much as tomorrow
Ohhh, I loved you more today than yesterday
But darlin' not as much as tomorrow

Everyday's a new day
Everytime I love you
Everyday's a new way
Everytime I love ya
Everyday's a new day
Everytime I love ya
Everyway's a new way
Everytime I love ya
Everytime I love ya
Everytime I love ya
Everytime I love ya

wala lang... miss ko lang baby ko....

Happy Easter everyone

holy week has ended... finally. It's not because I'm not religious, but it's kinda odd this year, I'm at work while everyone's in a vacation (not particular if they spend it just at home or they went to a supa vacation like goin to beach... bora..) but the main point is, atleast, they had a vacation. that's it!.. unlike I, who just spend all of the week at my work station.. doing nothing but my job... and the most painful part is that, Manila seems to be a ghost town.. yup,everyone's gone... they're at every part of the country... and envy them.. I wanna go home.. but I cannot..

I used to go on break every holy week, though I just stay at home.... I grew up with a religious family and so going everywhere during holy week is nothing but a sin.. yes it is..it is strictly prohibited.. When we we're young, T.V.'s not even allowed for the whole week, the only "extra-curricular" activities I had is to play with my friends. I do miss visiting my Lolo's place and watch those who were "nagpi-pinetensya" that eases up our boredom.. unfortunately now, after work, u have to go home straight. There's even a limited means of transpo, Mrt and Lrt are not operating, some malls are also closed not to mention some fast food and resto's.

But happily, I didn't failed to do my responsibilities as christian, and wholeheartedly did reflections during the semana santa since. It is a time, indeed, to repent and to reflect.... I went to the church to do a "station of the cross" prayer, do some fasting (but accidentally ate a pork because I mistook it as fish fillet....) and lastly, I received a rosary from my "baby" because they went to Manaoag on Easter Sunday. Anyway, I hope the past Holy Week has atleast change us even in a small way...

Bday Party!!

I dunno if it's just a coincidence or what, but the very next day after I posted the 10 things that we usually do during "downtime" on our work, the internet service on our company was curtailed and without our knowing, all of the service were down and from then on, we we're deprived to use our only preveiledge of accessing the web.. and that is the main reason why I haven't uploaded my blog and so was my friendster... As pampalubag loob, it was reconnected 2day because we were working and it's Holy Thursday! I've alsp learned that they were giving away some freebies...

Anyway, there's no other events that unfolded last week except for the Birthday celebration I had wiht my Family and friends.. at long last natuloy din.... I've planned for it for a long time and at it did pushed through. I intended not to cook too much since I have only few friends that's comming, take note, these are only my close friends from pampanga because I haven't celebrate my birthday with them since highschool, kya I decided to have a small party with them and with my Family as well. Pam, Madel, Jun-jun, Banjo, Joanne&mike, allan, harris, brix and Luisito are my visitors that night. Some failed to come due to some unavoidable circumstances, but it made my day very happy and satisfied...
For the past 4 years, I've celebrated my birthdays with my friends in baguio because basically, I stayed there and I always have a class so there's no way for me to have it celebrated with my kapampangan friends.... but since I stayed in Manila now and it would only take you an hour to reach pampanga (thanks to the new NLEX), there would be no excuse this time so I went ahead and asked y mom to cook a little for me and it came out very memrable.

by the way, thanks for the presents... sa mga wala pa, pwede pang magpahabol.... hehehehe..

10 things.........

I'm freakin bored with the shift, though there's just a few calls... I've been missing my baby alot..... anyway, I've decided to enlist the top 10 things that I've been doing while it's a "downtime" on our work....

1.check e-mails

-fortunately, we have an unlimited access to the web. However, friendster is not allowed on our system, but some of the agents are using proxy sites, but mine's not working for whatever reason so I just check my mails which comes also from my boss.. mga sermon.. mga pagawa.. at kung anu-ano pa...

2.chat

-yes, you've heard it right, we are chatting when we don't have a call but yahoo messenger is not also allowed so we are using proxysite for chatroom... mga ligawan blues... corny!!

3.text

-before, we can bring our mobile phones while we're on the floor but right now it was prohibitted, but then, i used to send text messages alot to my textfriends eventhough that it is causing too much static on my headset, maybe that is one of the very reason why...

4.online games

-yes, although our company has a very strict rules regarding internet usage some of us has the guts to play online games because some of my "techie" team mates managed to download those online games though they can be filtered from our system.. one of my fave is "hangaroo" heheheh

5. Gambling

-anyforms.... name it... my most favorite, lucky nine. All u need is the calculator from our computer.. bingo..

6. chi-chat

-yes, the most easiest and most convenient, pamatid boredam is to have a small or group "talky" with the person seated beside you or within the whole team..

7. viewing pleasures..

-yes, although the floor seems to be crowded you still can see or notice some of the visually-stimulating images from each side of the floor... (8s up to u if ull be naughty or nice.. hehehe)

8.Daydream

-the most cheapest means of unleashing the boredam, especially, remeniscin the things you've done in the past.. and ahem, some of the "not-so-nice" things u wish to do..

9.READ

-yup, i just read some of the posts from my favorite blogger who writes well and gives me alot infos anything under the sun, Ala Paredes and Jo Macasa to name a few.

10. UPDATE BLOG!!!!

-hehehehe, self explanatory..........

mata

di po ako pumasok dahil may lagnat ako!!!!!!!!!! (ows)..... But I'll be just fine... anyway, check out this song that I've been humming the past few days........


mata
"mojofly"

Kamusta na,
nandyan ka pa ba
Wala na yatang magagawa kundi tumawa
Nandyan pa ba mga ala-ala
Ang tanging bagay na naiwan sa 'ting dalawa

'wag na paikutin ang isa't isa
Lahat ng bagay ay malinaw na
Hindi na rin kailangan pagpilitan pa'di mo na kinakailangan pang magsalita

Chorus
Nakita ko na lahat ito
Pinahihiwatig ng mata mo
Salamat na lamang sa iyo

7 years of friendship

Since I'm in pampanga last weekends, I took advantage of havin a long vacation, so I called up my barkada and informed them that I just arrived. Before i knew it, Harris, (my kumpare) suddenly appeared infront of our door and it is already a sign that there's another umaatikabong inuman. The las time when we get drunk was last November, yes, 4 long months and I'm sure the rest of the group are just waiting for me to quench for their thirst for alcohol.... (mga sunog-baga kasi kami kahit nung highschool pa) then, we had kwentuhan, even last christmas, we wouldn't able to celebrate because everytbody's seems to be busy. As we go on, we reflected on some of the most happiest days we had as a barkada, The Enchanted kigdom trip when we were on our foruth year(highschool), the Swimming parties(during sembreak or summer), the trip to Luisita, the Dringking sessions, the trip to baguio, the "panliligaw" and all those stuff. It is just surprising that everone in the group seems to be eager to do those activities once agin and I'm also excited to bond with this tropa.....

love and death

My mom called me up last wednesday while im at work to inform me that my tito bhoy, just past away that morning due to kidney complications. I rushedly asked my boss and filed for a leave....... while I'm on my way home to our province, I recalled when we were young, tito bhoy used to stay with us since his work was just near our place and his one of the "alaga" of my mom (they used to call our place an orphanage...) then I rem the times when I really hated him coz when I'm a kid (I'm chubby) he used to kiss me on my chin and I hate his beard and I really cry to death and yell at him... I also remember the pasalubong he always give us (mixed nuts) eventhough it's late at night, me and my ate insist to nibble eventhough that we just finishd having toothbrush... at the burrial, I was so touched with the scene wherein Tita beth kissed my tito's remains... They really do loved each other and it proves that only death would set them apart.. they were married for only two years and yes, they marry late at the age of 40. They both know that tito bhoy would not be able to make it that long but still, their faith kept them intact.. but the fact that nothing in this world is permanent and that we need to leave this world to serve our creator, I know, tita beth would soon be recover and I really do admire her effort in the name of love....