kickoff...

I'm taking it back.. I'm bringing my blog back.. It's a part of me.. I can not take away some part of me.. for I would not feel complete..

Had a blast in my recent tour..

speechless...

It says it all..

goodbye..

For 5 years of blogging, it became an outlet of my emotions, a witness to my triumphs and failures, a friend I can talk to, a confidante, and a reality to my imagination.

I might be saying goodbye to this valued blog of mine. Amidst the achievements and happy experiences I have shared in this channel, it somehow created conflicts, issues, and had caused pain to all those who continuously view my posts, and even to those whom I truly cherish.

I am hoping that as I close this book, all the sad memories will fade and the pain will be swept away...

Bum...

Here are my whereabouts during my "bum days"..

Day 1

-Right after my almost-eviction, I had a lunch with Aimiff and Pam at Extremely Espresso. Then we went to Aimiff and BK's Apartment with beth and had a bountiful meal there. At night, I met with Clarise and Juvy for a drink. I got messages and calls from colleagues, a nice gesture from newly found friends from office.

Day 2

-Nothing much for the day. I went to church and stayed all day long at home.

Day 3

-With mom, we went to check the house at Fiesta. Then I went to pam's office then waited at home for the Big boss' instruction. It was a nerve wrecking day but it went well as I passed the interview for a new account.

Day 4

-Went out with Clarise. We had a coffee at Starbuck Marquee Mall then watched "I Do". It was a laid-back night as I received a message from my boss that I have to report to work and meet my new manager. I rushed to the office only to find out that person i'm supposed to look for was not there yet and that I am expected to report on the 18th pa.

Day 5

-I met Clarise, Joy and Aimiff for a coffee at Coffee Academy. Then had a Margarita session at Queue, Rob Place.

Day 6

-day for pamper. Not a good day though because of a stressful issue, yet I have not overcome the current one. Had a facial with junela, then our favorite past time, Videoke! we net Pam after then had a meal at Toll house. We decided to see Pam;s place at Xevera after. I had a relaxing foot spa there. The, I and Junela decided to buy DVD's, got my fave Grey's and some indie flicks..

Day 7

-nothing much for this day. I just went out to work out then i went home. I'm not in any mood to go out or to see or to talk to anyone. just watch Greys all night. been watching "Imortal" too since day 1.

Day 8

-I got a lot of things to do today but I canceled some of them. I met Clarise at Starbucks after having dinner with Aimiff at karate boy. Then she accompanied me to Courtyard to meet my team. I missed my "anak-anakan". We moved to Spencers and had a nice time. It was still early so we decided to transfer to Bruno's. To my surprise, my team requested for me to jam with the band. I unhesitatingly rocked the last song of the night with Rivermaya's "Hinahanap-hanap kita". It was a first for me to sing with a band.. good thing I was assisted by the vocalist.. and i forgot their band name but it was an awesome experience. We tried to end the night at the newly opened Starbucks along Mcarthur Hiway but it was still close so we had an earl breakfast at Jbee-AUF.

Day 9

-10-10-10

it was an exciting day for me because it was the last day of the "cool-down" stage. I went to Junela for the City fiesta and met some of the old-familiar faces there. We, then, released our stress at Spencers and called it a day.

...to be continued

series...

wala ako masabi.. magulo ngayon.. I guess it's true about what they say.. once a year your gonna have your own life's mishap!.. tapos nako sa last year.. kaya pala all the while I felt like my life is in full turn.. career, love life, family, friends.. and lahat ng wish ko nagkakatotoo.. Akala ko naman, it was life's way of giving it back to me after the tremendous event last year.. though yung last year.. hindi ko naman sinusumpa yung nangyri.. actually I was thankful for what happened.. marami ako natutunan at maraming nangyaring maganda after it..

Yun nga lang.. nangyayari ang mga hindi inaasahan... but I believe that everything happens for a reason.. I don't want to preempt things but it was a sad thing to happen. It was somehow humiliating and traumatic.

But I am trying to see the bigger picture of this. I hope that things will end well. Ayoko ng kumplikadong buhay.. pero ewan ko ba at nagiging kumplikado ang bawat buhay na pasukan ko..

Simple lang nman ang mga gusto ko sa buhay.. ayoko naman ng major complications.. pero ang nangyayari every time na may gawin akong isang bagay.. gumugulo.. nagiging kumplikado.

Sabi nga nila we can't have it all.. we can always look at the menu but we can't order everything... first time ko ulit mag tagalog sa blog ko.. ayokong mag english.. may naaalala ako... yun na!

plea

Lahat ng problema ay may solusyon, kung walang solusyon, wag problemahin.. a quotable quote from one of Ai-ai's movie. It is funny and it make sense at the same time.

I agree that most of the time, we make our own problems. We create our own fear and we let them haunt us. But I couldn't say that it is always the case. Because for all I know, sometimes, life has its own way of fussin' us all.

It is also true that history repeat itself. But when it happens again, it isn't the way we expect them to be, it may be even worse or more complicated. Usually, the issue is the same, the scenario is the same but this time, different characters, different level of emotions. But it all boils down to one thing, we never learn and yet we keep on repeating the same old mistakes.

There is nothing perfect in this world, no matter how hard we tried to make everything surreal. Time will come and things will suddenly fall apart. We always say, because we are human, we bound to make mistakes. But it was never an excuse to keep on repeating them.

We misjudge other people's decision or choices. That's what we are good at. We can easily identify somebody else' mistake. But when it comes to our own fault, we try everything we could to justify them. We convince ourselves that we choose the right thing.. because of these, because of that...


For what its worth, we never really learn. We kept on complaining, we kept on demanding but we failed to do our own part.

I hope that saying "everything will be fine" won't be something that people will get addicted on saying or believing. Because knowing this, we would just go on and doing things we do because we can rely that "everything-will-be-fine" anyway.

love?...

While everybody else is getting out of bed
I'm usually getting in it
I'm not in it to win it
And there's a thousand ways you can skin it

My feet have been on the floor
Flat like an idle singer
Remember winger
I digress
I confess you are the best thing in my life

But I'm afraid when I hear stories
About a husband and wife
There's no happy endings
No Henry Lee
But you are the greatest thing about me

[Chorus]
If it's love
And we decide that it's forever
No one else could do it better
If it's love
And we're two birds of a feather
Then the rest is just whenever
And if I'm addicted to loving you
And you're addicted to my love too
We can be them two birds of a feather
That flock together
Love, love
Got to have something to keep us together
Love, Love
That's enough for me

Took a loan on a house I own
Can't be a queen bee without a bee throne
I wanna buy ya everything
Except cologne
'cause it's poison
We can travel to Spain where the rain falls
Mainly on the plain side and sing
'cause it is we can laugh we can sing
Have ten kids and give them everything
Hold our cell phones up in the air
And just be glad we made it here alive
On a spinning ball in the middle of space
I love you from your toes to your face

[Chorus]

You can move in
I won't ask where you've been
'cause everybody has a past
When we're older
We'll do it all over again

When everybody else is getting out of bed
I'm usually getting in it
I'm not in it to win it
I'm in it for you

If it's love
And we're two birds of a feather
Then the rest is just whenever
Then the rest is just whenever

If it's love
And we decide that it's forever
No one else could do it better
And if I'm addicted to loving you
And you're addicted to my love too
We can be them two birds of a feather
That flock together
Love, love
Got to have something to keep us together
Love, love
Got to have something to keep us together
Love, love
That's enough for me

Sailing..

My crossing-over to Bertaphil has caused me 10 lbs off my weight. Imagine to take an average of 15 to 20 escalation calls, not only from my team but from other agents on the floor too. A drastic change that I never imagine that I would encounter from just moving to another site.

I have to handle a total of 16 newly-hired reps.. and It was tiring.. I have to adjust to almost everything, all at once.

The culture is almost a call-center-like, not really the kind of set-up I used to be with but I think, it's getting there.

I have nice Managers too. My previous Manager is also nice when I was under his team but this time, I have foreign nationals as Bosses and it was surprising to know that they are nice. I hope that the impression would last.

There were routines that I am now failing to endeavor as things get winded due to my hectic and nauseating job. My fingers are crossed hoping that things will be back to its places again and that I can run the same things I like doing.

superB**

"In the blink of an eye
In the speed of the light
I'll hold the universe up
And make your planets collide
When I strap on my boots
And I slip on my suit
You see the vixen in me
Becomes an angel for you"

meaningless

I am still sad... dunno why.. I just love listening to this song..



Used to dream of being a millionaire, without a care
But if I’m seeing my dreams, and you aren’t there
’cause it’s over
that just wont be fair
darling,
rather be a poor woman living on the street,
no food to eat,
cause i don't want no body if i have to cry.
cause it's over
when you said goodbye!

all at once...
i had it all
but
it doesn’t mean anything
now that you’re gone
from above seems i had it all
but it doesn’t mean anything
since you’re gone

now i see myself through different eyes,
it's no surprise!
being alone will make you realize
when it's over!
all in love is fair I shoulda been there, I shoulda been there, I shoulda shoulda.


all at once...
i had it all
but
it doesn’t mean anything
now that you’re gone
from above seems i had it all
but it doesn’t mean anything
since you’re gone

I know I pushed you away
What can I do that would save our love
Take these material things
They don’t mean nothing
Its you that I want
All at once...
I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Now that you’re gone
From above,
Seems I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Since you’re gone

All at once...
I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Now that you’re gone
From above,
Seems I had it all
But it doesn’t mean anything
Since you’re gone

bored..

I was surprised to wake up this morning with a text from our trainer informing us that the training for today will be postponed and that we have to take our off. It has only been 2 days since we started training. Amazing! that's all I can say.

I have not made any plans at all for this "sudden" off. I have a commitment this Saturday with friends but due to this twist of fate, I have to cancel it and deal with the current situation. Bored to death, I went to the gym to finally work-out. I had escaped the gym since the start of my vacation leave and it has been like 3 weeks already.

To add more frustration, I wasn't able to contact my friends to accompany me on this unexpected free day of mine. Most of them were working and I couldn't do anything to force them to go with me. So there, a free day wasted. Good thing I was able to work out and at least i was able to achieve something.

I was asleep for like 10 hours this morning so I am not anticipating to be on my bed anytime soon. I think I'll watch "The Spartacus" later on.

jitters..

First day, nervous and excited at the same time. I felt like I'm a new employee again and clueless about the world I'm about to be part with.

I just hope things will be fine.

Let's get it on!

adapt...

I should have been in Manila right now and spending time with my Makati friends before my very first day at work in Clark. I had to cancel the trip back to manila due to heavy rains. It is much better spending the night cuddling at bed, and oh well, writing blog.

I'm starting this Monday and I am having this butterfly in my stomach. It will be a new environment for me, given the fact that iQor-Makati has been my refuge for 4 long years. And now, I have to adjust and adapt to whatever culture they have there.

There will be new changes happening within the next few weeks or months. We will also be moving to a new house. Since the dawn of my existence, I have been on this small, but a fortress, place we call home.

Things kept on changing, so rapid that I have to adjust a lot. Like being on a married status. It happened so fast and now, I have to plan, not for my self, but for me and my parent's future.

I have posted several entries on this blog about life's surprises, and it still don't

vicissitudes..

I should be in Manila by now, spending time with my Makati friends before my very first day at work in Clark. I had to cancel the trip to manila due to this heavy rains. It is much better spending the night cuddling at bed, and oh well, writing blog. (cuddling myself that is..)

I will start this Monday and I am having this butterflies in my stomach. It will be a new environment for me, given the fact that iQor-Makati has been my refuge for 4 long years. And now, I have to adjust and adapt to whatever culture they have there.

There will be set of new changes happening within the next few weeks, or months. We will also be moving to a new house. Since the dawn of my existence, I have been on this small, but a fortress, place we call home. We are just waiting for things to be fixed then were outta here.

Things kept on changing, so rapid that I have to be quick in responding to these vicissitudes. Like being on a married status, It happened so fast and now, I have to consider planning, not just for my self, but for me and my partner's future. We have not came out yet with an actual and detailed plan for things keep on changing. But one thing's for sure, we will be settling down once everything has been accomplished.

We are planning to obtain some properties. My transfer to clark is just a start for this plan. I have to save. Being here in Pampanga will help me, and us, save more. Good thing, I was given an opportunity to move back here in my home land. While apart, we will try to cut lose and effort to endeavor our long-term plans.

Migrating to another country is also an option. But for now, we wanted to take one step at a time.

I have posted several entries on this blog about life's surprises, and it still don't fail me.

kota..

Don't u just love my new template? please please please.. feed my fish ---->

aren't they the cutest thing?

I'll be in Kita Kinabalu soon... I'm as excited as ever....

love love love...

gone..

I felt miserable. I have to spend time alone and get used to it again. Spending time with you for a couple of days made me comfortable, made me feel secure, made me think that everything was fine and that I don't have to be alone again. I never felt any solitude when I was with you. But as you left, I was back to the reality, reality that I have to deal with things all alone again.

In loving, each must deal with sacrifices, it can not be called love unless there's sacrifice involved. And I love you, and I gave myself to you, I am now married to you and our souls are united. But I can't help to miss you, your touch, your kiss, your smile, everything about you makes me crazy.

And now I have to "un-feel" things. I have to train my mind, to convince myself that I can not be with you for now. I have to undergo self-help to survive. My longing for you makes me insane, and worst, it kills me, every nerve of me.

and this pain.. it's worst than the last heart break, and I felt miserable.

unite

two less lonely people in the world,,,

Everything is falling into places.. I am, once again, the happiest person on earth. I couldn't deny it. I just hope things go well. The moment is almost near and I am getting nervous whenever I think of it. Another chapter in my life to begin, or should I say, has began. I am as excited as every person getting married, and this is what I wanted, to be with the person I am more than willing to spend my life with, to grow old with. Good thing I get to choose almost everything I prefered so it's going to be comfortable with me as thing unfold on my very eye, on that ver day. It was not any thing big or fancy. But I could say, it's the most special day and some of the most special person will be there too.

Twists.

Everyone seems to be on "Eclipse" mode nowadays, even I. The twilight Saga:Eclipse has been shown last week and I got the chance to watch it at MARQUEE Mall (newest Ayala Mall) in Angeles City with my friend Aimiff. I could say, it was better than "NEW MOON" however, the book is way better than the film. The story is good, thought the plot was very predictable, not really a "movie-type". The story revolved, for me, around the childish encounters of Edward and Jacob, and bella being the "full-of-issue-brat". Hence, the sincerity of the romance between the three are more matured and something a person can get carried away easily. I tried finishing the book (in 3 days) before watching it.

Having talked about movies, I have been waiting for the movies, "THE LAST AIRBENDER", "SALT", "GOING THE DISTANCE", "THE SORCERER'S APPRENTICE", "INCEPTION", "EAT.PRAY.LOVE", "CHARLIE ST. CLAUDE", "BURLESQUE", and "HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HOLLOWS".

I am currently reading the book entitled "PARA KAY B" by Ricky Lee. It is hilarious though every truthful statements can pinch every nerve. Satirical but it can make us wonder why such thing called "LOVE" can f**k us all..

But I won't be arguing with that. I had a fair share of misfortunes of that subject... But in the end, love will always prevail.

I am getting married.

developments

Glee, Plants VS. Zombies, Hundred Islands, SATC.. etc..


The moment I stepped into being a leader in Operations made my life very complicated.. Have to handle so many situations at any given time. But ironically, it was fun. It always keep me on my feet, making everything possible and coming up such solutions that I never thought I will be coming up with.

While waiting for my favorite tv series to end (so once I start watching the first few episodes, I wouldn't have to wait for the next episodes on TV) I had the chance to watch Glee on cable because new episodes are being aired few days after it is aired in the US.

And now I couldn't help it. Watching it makes me forget of my own drama at work but the thing is I couldn't work out anymore because I have to spend time watching instead of just calling off the day and rest. The Madonna Episode still keep me get into the the groove.

And that goes for the Plants vs. Zombies too. I ended up dumbfounded when I witnessed my friends addicted to this game. You definitely know what I'm talking about...

I had bonding moments with my two groupies, My hommies and I had a blastful almost-ending summer, and I had an SATC nights with my BFF's. two of the most precious bonding moments I had before kissing summer away.

And now it's JUNE, it's birthday month. Not for me but for the people I love and I care about. June 13, my BFF jun-jun who is in current reverie.. I feel for you...

June 17, my MOM and my other BFF, Pam. I went to the cemetery yesterday and then I went straight to pam's.

June 20.. my babe's day.. I wish I can celebrate with you...

June 21, it was my sister's..

June 22, my cousin's.

I hope I am not forgetting anyone as of right now...

vent...

on the side of me..

It's 5 am and I am at work.. I was sick this early morning but I have to come to work. It is critical to be absent today, It's election day today but we were all deprived to our right to vote.. a sad reality of working in a BPO..

I had a very tiring week.. month.. summer that is.. I've been to karakol festival in Imus Cavite with my super BFF's 2 weeks ago and then, We celebrated Mark's birthday last week. And last weekend, I had my team's first team building.. It was fun but definitely tiring. It took us forever to reach Nasugbu, Batangas. Good thing my team is the wackiest group that there was never a dull moment while on our way.

Banjo's in town and it has been a couple of years since I last saw him. I'm looking forward to meet him again after few years (o ayan.. i mentioned you na ulit.. :P)

My last summer escapade would be in 2 weeks. I will be with my barkada and we will be heading to hundred Islands.. (yep, it got cancelled last month) and we are definitely pushing it through before summer ends.

I was hoping that GIBO Teodoro will win this election. I can confidently say that he is the most qualified to win the presidential seat. We need someone with brains to find solutions to our increasing multitude of national issues. I am not saying that the other presidentiables are not qualitfied but as per Gibo's credentials, he could be the only one who can save us from the misery of endless crisis our country is facing. This is not a campaign for GIBO, the period for campaign has ended few days ago but I am just expressing my thoughts. For what its worth, this is my blog. :)

I am excited for Sex and the City sequel. I am a huge fan and I can't wait to see it on the big screen.. I have discussed it with my friends that we will be watching in on a fancy movie house.. got to figure where.

I got reconnected with my long-time friend Sigfred. I knew him since 2006 back in NCO-QC. He is one of the few people I can trust and that I can be myslef without any fret. I am hoping to see him soon and I am wishing that he can visit me here in Manila. Or better, I could go there at Iloilo for a vacation.

My babe and I had a small qualm last night. I made my babe cry again and it kills me.. I hope that everything will be fine. It was actually fine because we were able to solve it but I hope that kind of argumentation won't happen again. i am sorry babe and I'm missing you so much..

Yesterday was mother's day and my Dad's birhtday at the same time. we attended an early mass and I was deeply touched by the priest's AVP entitled "liham ng isang ina". I've seen this post on FB and youtube but I have never actually seen it. Good thing I had my shades on so people won't notice my tears.. I am thankful for my mama's presence ofcourse, but I'm missing my mom so deeply. I wished she was still here so she could witness all the thing's I have achieved. But through it all, I know that she is still watching over me and my little brother.

wrath..

I was not in any mood to write something, but I can't help it. There was no one that I can talk to regarding what I feel. I am upset, so upset that I was not able to sleep well last night.

I just hate the feeling of being taken for granted. I know I wasn't at all. I just can't stand the feeling of this paranoia that someone doesn't really take time to make you feel you are special and that there were so many things in this world that really matter than you do.

Hence, one might think that I am some kind of foolish or self-centered b***, but I wasn't. I just felt like it wasn't fair at all. I was patient and I can go over beyond the limits of being patient. But I am only human. I can feel and it so happen that I can get hurt.

If that is the case, go ahead. Do your stuff. If you can survive for 3 days without even trying to reach me, then so be it.

terrified..

The song that recently made me cry :(

You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world full wrong you're the thing that's right
Finally made it through the lonely to the other side

You said it again my heart's in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark,
And I'm in love and I'm terrified.
For the first time in the last time
In my only life.

This could be good
It's already better than last
And love is worse than knowing
You're holding back
I could be all that you needed
If you let me try

You said it again my hearts in motion
Every word feels like a shooting start
I'm at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time in the last time
in my only

I only said it cause i mean it
I only mean cause it's true
So don't you doubt what i've been dreaming
Cause it fills me up and holds me close
Whenever i'm without you

You said it again my hearts in motion
Every word feels like a shooting star
Watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love and I'm terrified
For the first time in the last time
In my only life

melancholy..

After my Singa experience.. there's not so much things I did for the past few days. My weekly Pampanga trip became a routine and that of the daily work out and super early morning shift.

I am struggling with my trying-hard-to-be-fit as possible. I am getting huge by the minute. Eating home-cooked meals are so hard to resist. My summer activities are so much hectic that I couldn't figure how am I going to make everything's possible.

My Bangkok tour with Jette is still on hold though, work issues. Issues that makes me stressed out and make my nights sleepless. I am worried, not just for my career but for my reps as well. Some of them got their own family and that they needed the job so badly.

I may be going to "Hundred Islands" by mid-month of April, right after the Holy week. I wouldn't have any activity this coming holy week. It has been a family custom that holy week should not be spend on any vacation but rather finding it solemnity as a time to reflect.

But above all these activities, I still long for one thing....

twitts..

Friendster, Facebook, Mulitply, blog, and now Twitter.

https://twitter.com/WayneMangune

celebration..

28th Birthday in Singapore...

March 5 (8:30pm)

First time to ride a plane alone.. and 1st time to go outside the country.. I was anxious but it was great.. as they say, there's always a first time..

I arrived at Singapore at around 11:55 pm. Alain picked me up at the airport.. but before that, the immigration officer from the SINGAPORE government is very strict,.,,. but I remained calm.. but deep insisde it was nerve wrecking.

Singapore is a very clean and organized place. No smoke emission from the vehicles, no traffic, no people scattered along the public road. It was quite serene but the city is still very busy and awake amidst the time.

This country has been a home for 3 diversed but co-exsisting race of Indians, Malay and the Chinese. Filipinos play a big part of the multi-cultural Country too. Several skilled pinoy's are almost everywhere.

We went to his apartment and he toured me around the vicinity. The place looks fine but I still can't get the feeling of being outside my own country.

March 6 (day 2)

It was a busy day,. we had chinese breakfast and we ride a bus wherein you just have to swipe a card. Then we rome around the city. We went to these huge malls. There were so many of them that famous and expensive brands are very much available almost everywhere. We went to this famous Orchard road, the Marina Bay, China town, Esplanade, Durian buidling and a lot more..

At night, we went back Burgis mall and watch a movie by TIM Burton, "Alive in Wonderland". It was in 3d and it was a good one.

Everything is expensive, from cigarette, to the fare tickets. The things I bought for pasalubong are all expensive but everything is worth it.

We had a last stop at this fancy place.. and painted the town red.

March 7 (day 3, birthday)

The weather is very humid but the wind continuously blows towards the horizon. After our bountiful indian/chinese meal for our lunch, we went to Vivo City. It was another high-end type of mall where all signature and leading brands are sold.

We went to this "FOOD REPUBLIC" and I was in awe because of the it's theme. It is Old-style Chinese village. I took a lot of pictures.

We then bought a ticket for SENTOSA and one for the main attraction of sentosa which is the "Songs of the sea". to go there, we had to ride another train but it was made mainly to bridge the mall to the Sentosa Island.

unfortunately, Universal Studios Singapore is not yet open. It is still under construction. Resorts World, on the other hand, is already in full operation. There was a HUGE Merlion is situated between the Universal Studios and the Sentosa beach.

I felt like I was in the Boracay when we've reached the Silosa Beach. It has white sand and a couple of resorts ans bard. Amazingly, unlike Bora, it is just man-made.

We tried this SKyline and LUGE.. it was a cable ride and at the end of it, you'll drive back with this ala-go kart,, it's called LUGE.. that's all I can say to describe it.

Finally, we watched the "Songs of the sea". It is a combination of fireworks, water fountain and visual laser lights all in one. It was such a nice presentation.

When we went back to the mall, we had a fine dining at this "Fig and Olive" to at least celebrate my birthday. The food was succumbing that I forgot that I was on a diet.

Went home by riding this interconnected MRT.

214...

For some,this day might be a significant day since it is the day when lovers get to spend time with their partners with the rest of the couples in the world. It is valentines day. For Chinese, it is the first day of their traditional calendar. For me, it marks the 3rd month of our relationship. I am so pleased to celebrate this day with my loved one.

So many things happened the past few days. Career wise, I achieved one of the things I've been longing for, to be a team leader. It took me 5 years, 3 huge company, 3 departments, and gazillions (exaggeration)of new people i meet along the way. But everything paid off. I owe this to every friends and every supporters I had for the past years of work hard and perseverance.

I still can't believe it for it happen unexpectedly. But now, I am more willing to learn new things and to battle with the new "real" world i am now in.

For a short period of time, I was blessed with bountiful things, that includes you. This 214, I am giving you all what I can give, my love and my existence.

Happy hearts day...

Anniversary..

Five years of blogging

It was 2005 when I first learned about the world of Blogging. I tried it for curiosity sake amidst the fact that I am not techie person and I am not really inclined when it comes to writing. I just wanted to use this as a medium for expressing my thoughts. It may not have been updated on a regular basis but I made it a point that I put something on it. And whenever I wanted to say that I couldn't say or express, this is where I put it.

Every pages, every entry, and every update has it's own story. This blog became the witness of every triumph, every failure, every smile, every fulfilled dreams, every exciting experience.

And now it has been 5 years. It may not be a famous one, or controversial, but one thing's for sure. It may have touched lives. It may have inspired others. I may have shared the lessons I've learned from this life. I may not have millions, thousands, or hundreds of followers, but this is me. This is my life. You may like all the things I put here or you may hate it but we can not deny the fact that this is me, the real me and my story.

Thanks for your time. If you love it, then continue to follow my way down to the road of life.

cheers!

touched...

"No one stood up for you"

"I know you don't like me, and you have every right not to like me. I have abused my power, but now I'm here on your turf. What I need to say... What I need to say is I saw what your mother was doing. I saw how neglected you were, I saw her drive your father off. And, I spent a lot of time beating myself up about that. But, what does that do for you? Nothing. Nothing! I wasn't your advocate. I didn't fight for you. I never stood up for you. I left myself off the hook. I told myself I was young, and didn't know any better. But, I did know better. I wasn't much younger than you are now. I should have fought for you Meredith. Like you fought for that child today. I told myself that I wasn't your father, that it wasn't my responsibility, that I was right not to butt in. I let myself off the hook. You were helpless. You were a baby. A beautiful, smart, funny little girl, and no one stood up for you. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. -Richard to Meredith.." last episode on Season 5

I was blown away with this episode.. and yes, I was a bit late watching it.. it was shown early last year. These words of Richard to Meredith pinch every nerve in me. They act brialliantly.. I love this particular scene. i can't wait to watch the next season!

bang...

Today is the second day of the year. It is the first saturday and it seems like I'll be spending it at home.. Just home.. For the past year, almost all satudays were spend lurking down the streets of Angeles City. Yes, just here in Pampanga. After the incident in Manila early last year, I get to have some time to spend it with friends and Family.

And now it is 2010.. Time flies!

As I post on my FB account, last month, it was the 6th year of my Friendster account. Then next month, it will be my blog's 5th year.. I can still remember the time when I first hook my self in to the blogging world... and now.. I'm still blogging..

I just hope this will be a year for me.. 2009 is full of unpredictable memories.. but moving on would not be possible if we do not know how to let things go..

Holding grudges would not let us go on.. it would just keep us from the misery of yesterday. We may fail, but we should know when to rise above anything else. Then learn from the past.

We were given another year, another chance to make things right.