Single

I just watched the most recent episode of glee as part of my plan to stick at home for the day to rest. This week has been very tiring and stressful primarily because of work. The demands of the job requires longer patience and strength. I had to stick around at work after my daily huddle to further do my monitoring.. It was really exhausting.

I went out with my bff last night and we belt the night out as we sang along with our favorite pieces. A mini show as it turned out because of the well entertained audience. It was a night of fun but the truth of the matter remains a fact, it was a night of despair. My Friend and Chrissy called it off and i have this strong feeling that it is really the bitter end.

We are now both single and it is somehow good because we both have all the time in the world to bond more. We always have this "small secrets" but moving forward, we can both do things freely, without watching each other's back.

Sometimes, we really have to live our life alone, so we would know ourselves more. Being independent is not as pathetic as it felt. It is easy to identify our priorities as we can do things and think things for ourselves first without considering other people.. or person. It may sound selfish at first, but I have obtain the idea of giving yourself to someone would not mean anything if you don't know yourself at all.

He once told me that we are not getting any younger, but I felt that rushing things and settling down just for that reason is not a good reason after all. We have to be ready, ready to share ourselves to the rightful one who has the ability to understand us, our situation and can accept what we can only offer.

Settling down is not always an assurance of fulfilling one's destiny. It should always be just a part of growing. Destiny is called destiny if both sides are really believing on it and not just a fantasy. We should not just go after what everyone is craving because one day, we don't want to end up crying for we just had realize how sad it is to just regret.

Sometimes freeing someone could mean getting rid of them. It may also be letting them know themselves too and letting them realize if they would still come back after the liberty of living a life.

For now, I want to live that life and what it has to offer, though closing doors for a comeback of someone is not and will never be on the list. Thus, it would also depends if that person we are waiting for is would still be willing as we are.

metamorphosis..

Five months of non-blogging is like a life without a friend to confide. Blogging became the source of my freedom.. to let out things that I've been dying to cry out. But being away from it has a mere and complex reason. It was a period of transition and evolution.

New Home.
I recently move, finally, to a new house with my family here in Pmapanga. This made us busy. Moving to another place was a total havoc- time consuming and exhausting.. but just after we move, everything was worth it.

Handling my very own team for Sprint.
I started handling my current back in December and now I have a total of 14 diverse individual, but equally great agents.

Georgina.
I also had a fair-share of mishaps with one of my bffs but good thing we're in good terms now.. I thought I'll lost it but it turned out that we are much better now..

Pounds.
I quit gym. My short, available time does not allow it but I hope I can go back. I am on the verge again of gaining too much weight. No-rice like a-life-with-no-alcohol is what I want to achieve as of now but being at home with my mom's home-cooked meals which are to-crave-for makes this diet on a pit.

Source of knowledge.
New set of must-reads is one of the things I want to accomplish, reading is learning. I think I'm too depress right now and I need to divert my attention else where.

exit words.
Change is what makes us learn, it what makes us adapt.. it what makes us strong.. it will make us survive.

salvo

I miss you,.. but i know it's a little too late