Single

I just watched the most recent episode of glee as part of my plan to stick at home for the day to rest. This week has been very tiring and stressful primarily because of work. The demands of the job requires longer patience and strength. I had to stick around at work after my daily huddle to further do my monitoring.. It was really exhausting.

I went out with my bff last night and we belt the night out as we sang along with our favorite pieces. A mini show as it turned out because of the well entertained audience. It was a night of fun but the truth of the matter remains a fact, it was a night of despair. My Friend and Chrissy called it off and i have this strong feeling that it is really the bitter end.

We are now both single and it is somehow good because we both have all the time in the world to bond more. We always have this "small secrets" but moving forward, we can both do things freely, without watching each other's back.

Sometimes, we really have to live our life alone, so we would know ourselves more. Being independent is not as pathetic as it felt. It is easy to identify our priorities as we can do things and think things for ourselves first without considering other people.. or person. It may sound selfish at first, but I have obtain the idea of giving yourself to someone would not mean anything if you don't know yourself at all.

He once told me that we are not getting any younger, but I felt that rushing things and settling down just for that reason is not a good reason after all. We have to be ready, ready to share ourselves to the rightful one who has the ability to understand us, our situation and can accept what we can only offer.

Settling down is not always an assurance of fulfilling one's destiny. It should always be just a part of growing. Destiny is called destiny if both sides are really believing on it and not just a fantasy. We should not just go after what everyone is craving because one day, we don't want to end up crying for we just had realize how sad it is to just regret.

Sometimes freeing someone could mean getting rid of them. It may also be letting them know themselves too and letting them realize if they would still come back after the liberty of living a life.

For now, I want to live that life and what it has to offer, though closing doors for a comeback of someone is not and will never be on the list. Thus, it would also depends if that person we are waiting for is would still be willing as we are.