November 23:
I thought I will not see you anymore. I did not expect for I don't want to be disappointed. It's better this way, but I was surprised. I received a text from you and you wanted me to go to the mall and meet you there. I just found myself rushing to that mall. I saw you.. you were standing there.. and remained beautiful.
You invited me for a cup of coffee.. I ordered one of my favorite, Caramel Macchiato. As we sat there, you gave me a present. I was surprised as I open the present. It was a bear. It was the same exact bear a gave you the other day....
We decided to watch "New Moon" and you keep on telling me that I looked like the lead guy.. But I don't agree,,, I am not mushy as he is.. I more than mushy.. i'm in love... (lol).
Then It's time for us to part, a difficult thing to do. I was bleeding like hell deep inside me, as if it was the end for the two of us. I kept on bleeding, though I did not let you see it. My heart is tormented. I can't see you go. I found you and there's not way I'm letting go.
But it is a reality that I have to face. A reality to accept the fact that we will be thousand miles apart. But the fact that we may not be together physically, i know that our hearts are binded. We're together on this. we found each other... I won't let go.. I won't wait for you, but instead, wait for me.. i'm comming for you..
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Monday, November 23, 2009
savouring the moment
November 14:
I had a second thought of leaving, but I had a previous commitment to work overtime so I failed to catch you at the airport.. I arrived in Pampanga half past 1. Aimiff is texting me already and I told him I can't go. I went to out to meet Pam. I ran out of clothes that is why I decided to buy some stuff. We parted right after.
We've decided to finally meet up. I didn't expect what I felt that very moment. You were laughing but I was so nervous. I played it cool and we talked things out. We meet up your friend and my friends. Then we decided to hop to another place. It was a total fun.. we had our first kiss... we were in love.. we made it our day... to remember.. for the two of us.. just us.
November 15:
I went out again with friends and we watched "2012". Then you followed. We had our time together, alone. We chatted, I had a nice time. Then we went to the city and stroll around. We ate balut and we called it off....
November 16:
It was time for me to leave. You wanted to see me but I couldn't. I've missed you.
November 17:
You've decided to come to Manila to meet up your friends. And I decided not to go to work instead so I can accompany you... We meet up that night, I was so happy. We went to greenbelt and we had a nice time.
November 18:
Our first lunch together. I felt sadness since we'll be parted again. Then I went to work and i missed you so badly.
November 19:
My last day at work before my vacation leave. I was so excited to meet you again.
November 20:
I arrived in Pampanga early in the morning and I had to catch some sleep. You picked me up in the afternoon and we went to pam's. You accompanied me to buy present to your dad. We went to your place and I met your family. They were very nice and accomodating. I felt comfortable with them. then we parted again as we meet emil and we went to a KTV bar until 3 am.
November 21:
It was Saturday. I decided to cook my ever "famous" pasta. My friends came along. They brought food, Silvanas and Ice cream. It was like my birthday celebration, only extra special with you around. Then we went out to help my friend find a gift. Then we parted since you have to meet your friends for dinner. I went home 'coz I was so tired. Then I accompanied my mom and pam as we watched K Brosas at the Casino Filipino. Wished you were there. Then we lost our communication and we failed to have our next plan. I am about to call it off but I was surprised when you came, It was blissful. We went to pam's then we went to a coffee shop.. It was fun as we talked things out again.. Our plans.. Our relationship...
November 22:
We don't have any plan for that day but I woke up so early and went to a Mall to buy my gift for you. I couldn't decide on what to give you but It has to be something special and memorable. So since we'll be away for a year and that I can't be with you during those special events in your life. I decided to give you 4 different gifts for our first Monthsary, our first Christmas, our first Valentines day, and your 26th birthday. Wishing to be with you during those special days.
Then we went Angeles City and stroll around. We ate "kwekwke" as per your request, and it was a total fun. We went to church then we bought Bibinkga....
You have to meet your friends and I decided to rest. You wanted to meet at night but I told you to stick to your friends for tonight since it might take you a while to be with them again.
November 23:
You're last whole day today and I don't know if you're meeting me.. It would cut me down to my vein if I would not see you for the last time.. but it's not for me to decide. I have enjoyed every single moment together and I could not really ask for more. Knowing the fact that you are just around makes me move at the edge of my sit.
As I write this, I can't help but to think of you.. your sweet words.. your warm embrace.. your succumbing kiss... I wonder when can i hold you again...
I had a second thought of leaving, but I had a previous commitment to work overtime so I failed to catch you at the airport.. I arrived in Pampanga half past 1. Aimiff is texting me already and I told him I can't go. I went to out to meet Pam. I ran out of clothes that is why I decided to buy some stuff. We parted right after.
We've decided to finally meet up. I didn't expect what I felt that very moment. You were laughing but I was so nervous. I played it cool and we talked things out. We meet up your friend and my friends. Then we decided to hop to another place. It was a total fun.. we had our first kiss... we were in love.. we made it our day... to remember.. for the two of us.. just us.
November 15:
I went out again with friends and we watched "2012". Then you followed. We had our time together, alone. We chatted, I had a nice time. Then we went to the city and stroll around. We ate balut and we called it off....
November 16:
It was time for me to leave. You wanted to see me but I couldn't. I've missed you.
November 17:
You've decided to come to Manila to meet up your friends. And I decided not to go to work instead so I can accompany you... We meet up that night, I was so happy. We went to greenbelt and we had a nice time.
November 18:
Our first lunch together. I felt sadness since we'll be parted again. Then I went to work and i missed you so badly.
November 19:
My last day at work before my vacation leave. I was so excited to meet you again.
November 20:
I arrived in Pampanga early in the morning and I had to catch some sleep. You picked me up in the afternoon and we went to pam's. You accompanied me to buy present to your dad. We went to your place and I met your family. They were very nice and accomodating. I felt comfortable with them. then we parted again as we meet emil and we went to a KTV bar until 3 am.
November 21:
It was Saturday. I decided to cook my ever "famous" pasta. My friends came along. They brought food, Silvanas and Ice cream. It was like my birthday celebration, only extra special with you around. Then we went out to help my friend find a gift. Then we parted since you have to meet your friends for dinner. I went home 'coz I was so tired. Then I accompanied my mom and pam as we watched K Brosas at the Casino Filipino. Wished you were there. Then we lost our communication and we failed to have our next plan. I am about to call it off but I was surprised when you came, It was blissful. We went to pam's then we went to a coffee shop.. It was fun as we talked things out again.. Our plans.. Our relationship...
November 22:
We don't have any plan for that day but I woke up so early and went to a Mall to buy my gift for you. I couldn't decide on what to give you but It has to be something special and memorable. So since we'll be away for a year and that I can't be with you during those special events in your life. I decided to give you 4 different gifts for our first Monthsary, our first Christmas, our first Valentines day, and your 26th birthday. Wishing to be with you during those special days.
Then we went Angeles City and stroll around. We ate "kwekwke" as per your request, and it was a total fun. We went to church then we bought Bibinkga....
You have to meet your friends and I decided to rest. You wanted to meet at night but I told you to stick to your friends for tonight since it might take you a while to be with them again.
November 23:
You're last whole day today and I don't know if you're meeting me.. It would cut me down to my vein if I would not see you for the last time.. but it's not for me to decide. I have enjoyed every single moment together and I could not really ask for more. Knowing the fact that you are just around makes me move at the edge of my sit.
As I write this, I can't help but to think of you.. your sweet words.. your warm embrace.. your succumbing kiss... I wonder when can i hold you again...
Saturday, November 21, 2009
irony
Hmnnn.. upon opening my blog, I pause for a while. I can't put up the right words that would best describe how I really feel. It was filled with mixed emotions. So I just stared on my pc... and then there was a pause.
Life seems to be so unpredicatble. You'll never know what will happen next so you should expect the unexpected and learn to adapt to any exhuberant change.
I was the saddest person in the world, when the storm hit me early this year. I was defeated, I struggled, I fought, I regain, I survived and I have learned. Things went smoothly to my life. I told myself that it was just one part of me.. there are other things or aspect in my life that needs my attention...
Few peron came along, but I took every single step as easy as possible. I do not want to let my self be forced and dwell in to something I am not really sure. But never that I expected that someone like you would come on a right time... on a right place..
I was gravitated to you.. even from the very first day. I was afraid but something's telling me that I am doing the right thing...
Then we've met.. finally. It was not the perfect setting but it was blissful... serene..
At a single snap, I am he happiest person again... Heaven's what I felt in the arms of an imperfect being...
But again, life has it's own way.. I am again in the midst of sadness.. sad not because this will end... but I am feeling this because we have to be apart again..
but I am thankful, beause if Cinderella has only until midnight, I was given 10 wonderful days... and I am thnakful.. because I was given a chance.. to be with you.. and to prove my worth for your love..
You may leave,, but it doesn't mean goodbye for us.. I will be waiting... I found you.. and you found me.. I'm not letting go....
Life seems to be so unpredicatble. You'll never know what will happen next so you should expect the unexpected and learn to adapt to any exhuberant change.
I was the saddest person in the world, when the storm hit me early this year. I was defeated, I struggled, I fought, I regain, I survived and I have learned. Things went smoothly to my life. I told myself that it was just one part of me.. there are other things or aspect in my life that needs my attention...
Few peron came along, but I took every single step as easy as possible. I do not want to let my self be forced and dwell in to something I am not really sure. But never that I expected that someone like you would come on a right time... on a right place..
I was gravitated to you.. even from the very first day. I was afraid but something's telling me that I am doing the right thing...
Then we've met.. finally. It was not the perfect setting but it was blissful... serene..
At a single snap, I am he happiest person again... Heaven's what I felt in the arms of an imperfect being...
But again, life has it's own way.. I am again in the midst of sadness.. sad not because this will end... but I am feeling this because we have to be apart again..
but I am thankful, beause if Cinderella has only until midnight, I was given 10 wonderful days... and I am thnakful.. because I was given a chance.. to be with you.. and to prove my worth for your love..
You may leave,, but it doesn't mean goodbye for us.. I will be waiting... I found you.. and you found me.. I'm not letting go....
Monday, November 09, 2009
TAKING CHANCES
Don’t know much about your life.
Don’t know much about your world, but
Don’t want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.
You don’t know much about my past, and
I don’t have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it’s not meant to last,
But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there’s solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say? (2x)
I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?
What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there’s solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say? (2x)
And I had my heart beating down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There’s nothing like love to pull you up,
When you’re laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do, like lovers do.
What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there’s solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say? (2x)
Don’t know much about your life
And I don’t know much about your world
A Song for you..
Don’t know much about your world, but
Don’t want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.
You don’t know much about my past, and
I don’t have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it’s not meant to last,
But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there’s solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say? (2x)
I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?
What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there’s solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say? (2x)
And I had my heart beating down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There’s nothing like love to pull you up,
When you’re laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do, like lovers do.
What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there’s solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say? (2x)
Don’t know much about your life
And I don’t know much about your world
A Song for you..
Another Meredith's line
"When someone hurts us, we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us, we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old scores are never settled. Old wounds never heal, and the most we can hope for, is that one day, we'll be lucky enough to forget."
Meredith Grey,
Grey's Anatomy
Meredith Grey,
Grey's Anatomy
Monday, November 02, 2009
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