ur so gay

by Katy Perry



I hope you hang yourself with your H&M scarf
While jacking off listening to Mozart
You bitch and moan about LA
Wishing you were in the rain reading Hemingway
You don’t eat meat
And drive electrical cars
You’re so indie rock it’s almost an art
You need SPF 45 just to stay alive

You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like boys
You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like…

You’re so sad maybe you should buy a happy meal
You’re so skinny you should really Super Size the deal
Secretly you’re so amused
That nobody understands you
I’m so mean cause I cannot get you outta your head
I’m so angry cause you’d rather MySpace instead
I can’t believe I fell in love with someone that wears more makeup than…

You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like boys
You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like…

You walk around like you’re oh so debonair
You pull ‘em down and there’s really nothing there
I wish you would just be real with me

You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like boys
You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
Oh no no no no no no no
You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like boys
You’re so gay and you don’t even like boys
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like
No you don’t even like… PENIS

WAHAHAHAHAHAHA

REVALATIONS...-part 1 (lost memory...)

Quarter-life crisis one of the issues someone my age should be going through. But for me, this could be one of the least thing that I needed to dwell most. I have so many things to unravel and self-pity is not one of things I should be prioritizing. The mere facts that I am blessed with achievements and am with loved ones are enough to say that I don’t have to immerse myself into obscurity.

I am sick. I found out all about this few days ago when I felt discomforts and I have to get checked. It was confirmed, I am not in a good condition though I have to undergo several test. It saddened me due to the fact that I am still young to be in these health issues. I said “these” because the conflict of my medical issues does not only revolve to one concern, it’s several.

I am not that strong. I don’t know how I managed not to panic. To let this all get in to me would not do me any good. I asked myself, why me? There are billions of people but why is it me? It’s very distressing.

My condition is not as difficult as any other heath problems, it is curable. But there are so many why that lingers into my mind. I am happy with the other things I have. To finally found someone that makes me blissful is a reason enough to celebrate and live life to the fullest. But is this the price I have to pay?

I have to admit to myself that I am still lucky that I was able to survive in the midst of the deepest fate that I have been..... (unfinished)

Written last year, I wasn't able to post this blog entry.. I just found it while cleaning up my mails...

a confession of a drifting soul...

I found myself again looking outside the window from the bus while on my way home this morning to Pampanga. I just feel like doing some realizatons as the sun rises from the horizon...

I was sad again. I never thought that I would be free from it after the series of unfortunate events that shattered my world early this year. it came as a surprise as I cope so fast from the misfortunes and grievings. I even asked my friends, and myself, if it is even possible to move on that quick from an excruciating event.

Am I too positive? Did I just fool myself that I kept my mind so focused and so excited about getting the next best thing? was it only a make beleive that sun shines after every rain? Or I am not in a normal state of being since people who have encountered great sorrow takes time to heal and it only took me few months?

My friend Audrey said that maybe because it was too painful that it pushed me to move out of it and rise above. I received a message from a friend too, stating that life is like a ball being dribbles. Sometimes, you go up, but sometimes it goes down.But sometimes, the harder we fall, the higher we bounce. It is a nice thought really.

But all I am saying is that, why do I have to feel this sadness again? i asked mysekd if I have really recovered from the depression and I am positive that I have. But where does this sadness comming from? why am I not happy enough like I used to. Isn't done yet? Does really misfortunes comes in threes? is the torture never gonna end? what is it going to happen this time?


All I wanted is to get my groove back.. If love is not for me then be it.. I may not be used to being single but I can try.. more than willing to do so..
at least I want to have my life back. I want to get back the courage and the willingness to move on.. to fiind life again..

I am actually happy.. for having time, finally, for my family.. my friends.. and f or myself... I just wish I would be given a chance again.. to go again on the battle.. to go on with the dreams that I am hoping.. to dance with the tune of life again.. but sadly.. i have lost it all... I am struggling.. and I even felt that life itself is turning back at me... wherein losing hope ang giving up is not an option... but to keep on hanging.. even it's all againist the odds..
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On a lighter note...


I was too busy that I didn't realize that I have not been working out for 3 weeks.. I acquired additional pounds this time. The culprit? my co-QA's are fascinated with bringing food and "requiring" us to bring ours whenever we are asked to. I find it fun though, we are bonding and at the same time we are able to save money because it cost a lot whenever we eat outside.

I have watched GI Joe earlier and I finally seen a great movie this year. The only thing is that I failed to watch it at THX cinemas and I just wished that I saw it in Manila.

I am becomming a fan of Facebook nowadays but not realy with the games.

Beside the river Piedra, I sat down and weep... by Paulo Cohelio is the book that I am currently reading and hopefully I would be able to finish it by this week. I just hope I wrote the title correctly, not so sure though. Yeah, it was too long.

I got so addicted to Boys Over Flowers series due to my friends at the office. It was like a contagious that most of us were hooked to it that I even borrowed its DVD so i can finish it quicker than my colleagues. It was the only "koreanovela" I got hooked to after "endless love 1".

"Memoirs of an imperfect angel" is the new album of MIMI.. can't wait to have one. "Obsessed" is its new single and Its melody is still running inside my mind as i write this entry.

My sun number had expires.. I wasn't or should I say, i never loaded it so it came to its end.

I have not installed a game or bought any game for my PSP and PS2 but I am still in the process of scuttling the gamezone to check for good games. I know that Sony is releasing the updated version of PSP that is why the old model and its games will be phased-out soon.

I better sleep now.. it's 4 am. enough of my endless blabbing.. nyt.