Stand Up For Love

[Beyonce]
There are times I find it hard to sleep at night
We are living through such trouble times
And every child that reaches out
For someone to hold
For one moment
They become my own
And how can I pretend that I don't know
What's going on?
When every second
And every minute
Another soul is gone
And I believe that in my life
I will see
An end to hopelessness
Or giving up
Or suffering
Then we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
And stand up for life
Stand upAnd here me sing
Stand upFor love

[Kelly]
Im inspired
And hope
For each and everyday
That's how I know that things are going to change
So how can I pretend that I don't know
What's going on?
When every second
And every minute
Another soul is gone
And I believe that in my life
I will see
An end to hopelessness
Or giving up
Or suffering
If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
And stand up for life
Stand upFor love

[Michelle]
And it all starts right here
And it starts right now
One person stand up man!
And the rest will follow
From the forgotten
And From the Unloved
Im gonna sing this song,
And I believe
That in my lifeI will see
An end to hopelessness
Or giving up
Or suffering
If we all stand together this one time
Then no one will get left behind
And stand upfor lifest
and up
and sing
Stand upFor love

crisis 101

Everwhere you go, there are group armies stationed in different main streets, check points, riffles, and drivers tuned to am stations around the metropolis. Even when I enter the vicinity of ABS-CBN, there were armies (I'm not quite sure if the'yre marines or what..) but it is dreadful. Our country is once again under a great crisis, political crisis that is.

I don't dwell much on politics nor post articles about the current events, but we can not deny the fact that there is an on-gooing issue about political and social aspects in this country.

Another leader is in deep trouble, as in really "deep". She has been asked to vacate her position for a couple of times now but she remain tough and consistent with her decisions. Large groups of civic organizations protest againts her governance almost everyday. Would this actually means that she's not effective as a leader? or is it a political savotage?

This such issue has been haunting our nation for decades, I beleive in the fact that whoever "pontio pilato" we vote as a leader, this crisis would still emerge. This has been connected to our own culture, "crab mentality". We inherit this inevitable "culture" from the ever hispanics who colonized our country for 3 centuries.

It is so sad to realized that these politicians are so much fond of delving into such complicated issues. Ousting a president is not an answer to our poverty, it worsened the scenario. Coup de etat is not at all a good process for economical survival, it is our ticket to misery, to a much worst situation.

The change that we are all crying out has to start from ourselves. A president cannot asses all our problems. We need to act on our own ways before we rely too much and demand too much from the Government. We have to stop pulling down each other. What we need is cooperation and reconciliation.

I received a text message from a friend about the plot of this certain "group of soldiers" trying to bring "terror" with our wounded country. Imagine a few days ago, there was a stampede that killed almost a hundred lives. Then 2 weeks after another tragedy has shattered us, It was the landslide in leyte. And I don't think that succumbing criminal and unlawful act would help our people to survive. I don't wanna call it as restabilization, I say it is ENVIOUS. EVIL.

People needs to unite, to understand and be aware of the things that is happening to our country. We can not afford to have another EDSA revolution. Investor's and tourist would not appreciate this kind of set-up. Who in the end will reap the crop of this vehement acts? the poor, the masses... evryone.

Let us always ask God, our creator to guide us in this ongoing issue. We need prayer this time. Let us not forget those who risk their lives just to provide us with freedom that we enjoy right now. Democracy is ours, let us not give others a chance to take it from us...

FLY LIKE A BIRD
by Mariah

Somehow I know that
There's a place up above
With no more hurt and struggling
Free of all atrocities and suffering
Because I feel the unconditional love
From one who cares enough for me
To erase all my burdens
And let me be free to

[chorus]
Fly like a bird Take to the sky
I need you now Lord
Carry me high
Don't let the world break me tonight
I need the strength of you by my side
Sometimes this life can be so cold
I pray you'll come and carry me home

Can we recover
Will the world ever be
A place of peace and harmony
With no war and with no brutality
If we loved each other
We would find victory
But in this harsh reality
Sometimes I'm so despondant
That I feel the need to

[chorus]
Fly like a bird
Take to the sky
I need You now Lord Carry me high
Don't let the world break me tonight
I need the strength of
You by my side
Sometimes this life can be so cold
I pray You'll come and carry me home
Keep your head to the sky
With God's love you'll survive

Fly like a bird
Take to the sky I need you now
Lord Carry me high
Don't let the world break me tonight
I need the strength of You by my side
Sometimes this life can be so cold I pray
You'll come and carry me home
Carry me higher, higher, higher
Carry me higher, higher, higher
Carry me home
Higher Jesus
Carry me higher Lord

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!

My Blog turns 1 year today.. Its seems like it was a month ago when I first discovered th power of blogging. Although I have not mastered the technicalities, I was able to enjoy this service from the web. Imagine, all you need is an Internet access.

Blogging is becomming part of our lives. It is building connection to the world. We were able to locate some of the old friends we lost track off, we were able to express our own thoughts, we were able to have an output to our emotions, and lastly, we have our own website which you can brag whatever things you've achieved or share stupid things you have done previously.


Imagine a daily journal being displayed in the world... Whenever I read blog posts, it's like reading a Diary or like watching a teleserye...

I was onced hook with Ala Paredes blog. She's a brilliant writer. She can talk about anything under the sun, from ploitics to fashion. Reading her blog is like having her as a friend, 'coz you would be able to know more about her and her life.

for that, let me post some of my favorite post for the past year.....

~7 years of friendship (March 14, 05)

~ invisible (March 10, 05)

~friend from the past(March 5, 05)

~gift list (March 7, 05)

~missin' u (April 31, 05)

~stranded (June 07, 05)

~circles (July 20, 05)

~left in the middle (July 11, 05)

~share ko lang (August 29, 05)

~where I've been (September 27, 05)

~untitled (October 15, 05)

~Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Nov 18, 05)

~ode to my heart (Nov 6, 05)

~reflections (Dec 14)

~Gale Harold (Dec 13)

~lala land (Dec 16)

~effervesced (jan 20, 06)

~open letter 1 (Posted Jan 25, created March 10, 05)

~open letter 2 ( Feb 7, 06)

~open letter 3 (Feb 15, 06)

~Hail to the Queen (Feb 12, 06)

~from princess (Feb 18, 06)

san ka pa?

San ka nakakita ng kumpanyang ang CA(Corrective Action, or MEMO!) na walng verbal warning or any 1st warning for first offense? at san ka nakikita ng dahil lang sa pag gamit ng *utang Instant Messenger eh di ka na pwedeng ma-promote for a year kahit pa sabihing ur damn deserving?!

Yes, I'm so much upset! (obvious ba?) and it really went down to my nerve how this crap (policy) being implemented in this Company. I'm trying very hard. As they can see, I'm ranking 12 for the whole floor eventhough I don't have a score for "Adherence" (another thing that the Comapny needs to be aware of!) If I would have a score in that metric, for sure I would have a higher rank!

Princess ranked 14, without attendance and adherance. She could be ranking 1st if ever she had scores on these metrics..... how unfair right?

As what I've said, I'm trying my best just to get a place in this company. Transferring here from Convergys would be a wrong move for me. Daig ko pa ngaun ang mga "Iba" dyan na wala namang ginawang tama sa mga calls nila at puro transfer at ang mag"call avoidance" lang naman but they we're given recognition which they do not, at all, deserved!

I admitt that I shouldn't have done it . Pero napaka injustice para sa isang offense na wala man lang rinelease na "first warning"! At san ka pa makakahanap ng kumpanya na ang CA o r Memo na kung saan ang Immediate superior mo walang magawa at ang nag-issue eh taga ibang team/department? wala man lang talgang abiso or what?

No wonder kaya pala ang daming umaalis din dito kahit pa medyo ok ang offer! Mga tenured nga umaalis na lang sila, kaya I don't wanna see my self stucked in this whole crap! There's got to be a way out if there's no a way up!



On the lighter side.. mag bibirthday nako.. 2 magiging celebration cguro, the first with my new housemates here in Q.C., and the other one will be in Pampanga (just the same one last year.)

Intimate lang ang magiging celebration, just some of my close friends and my family. So please do prepare for you birhtday presents... (heheheheh)....

from princess...

I never thought I’d find someone like you
Though in my every fantasy I saw you everyday
I thought there was no way - to make my dream come true

A trick of fate would bring us together
A trick of fate would alter our lives
We had to wait it seemed like forever
But never say never to a trick of fate

Our lives are in the hands of destiny
And though we try to take control
That’s not the way it goes - a higher power knows
How it’s supposed to be

I didn't know I was looking for love...

EVERYTHING BUT THE GIRL

I was alone thinking I was just fine
I wasn't looking for anyone to be mine
I thought love was just a fabrication
A train that wouldn't stop at my station
Home, alone, that was my consignment
Solitary confinement
So when we met I was SKIRTING around you

I didn't know I was looking for love
Until I found you
I didn't know I was looking for love
Until I found you, honey
I didn't know I was looking for love
Until I found you, baby

Didn't know I was looking for love
Didn't know I was looking for love
Cause there you stood and I would
Oh I wonder could I say how I felt
And not be misunderstood
A thousand stars came into my system
I never knew how much I had missed them
Slap on the map of my heart you landed
I was coy but you made me candid
And now the planets circle around you


I didn't know I was looking for love
Until I found you
I didn't know I was looking for love
Until I found you, baby
I didn't know I was looking for love
Until I found you, baby
Didn't know I was looking for love
Didn't know I was looking for love

So we built from here with love the foundation
In a world of tears, one consolation
Now you're here, there's a full brass band
Playing in me like a wonderland
And if you left I would be two-foot small
And every tear would be a waterfall
Soundless, boundless, I surround you
I didn't know I was looking for love
Until I found you
I just didn't know
I didn't know I was looking for love
Until I found you
I didn't know I was looking for love
(I just didn't know)
Until I found you
I didn't know I was looking for love
(Oh, I just didn't know)

open letter to emill

We've been bestfriends for almost 11 years now... it's only me who knows you, inside out, and its only u who can appreciate every small things that I can do... with no hesitations at all.

We almost grew up together and we almost took the same path. We've shared secrets, we laugh on our misfortunes, we were astonished by our "misadventures'', we've learned on our misbehaviors and we cried on our loses.

It's nice to know that whatever misfortunes I've encountered, I know that someone that I can cling on in times of miseries... and you never let me down...

Now that you're the one on the lowest part of life, an unfathomable situation, tormented, desperate.

Let me assure you that you can still count on me.. nothing has changed.. I would still be the same person you've ever known...

Life is full of surprises, you'll never know what you'll be into, but we should face it as if it's another journey, another adventure...

I ask God for our guidance, I would always be here for you.... until the crab learns to fly....



Minsan, bago tayo matuto, kailangan muna tayong magkamali. Bago tayo bumangon, kailangan muna nating madapa. Bago tayo sumaya, kailangan munang lumuha... oo, nagkakamali tayo kasi tao lang tayo.. hindi tayo perpekto.... Nasasaktan dahil sa pagmamahal hindi dahil pumili tayo ng maling tao, kundi dahil hindi lang tama ang paagakakataon na nagmahal tayo....

If you’re lonely
And need a friend
And troubles seem like
They never end
Just remember to keep the faith
And love will be there to light the way
Anytime you need a friend
I will be here
You’ll never be alone again
So don’t you fear
Even if you’re miles away
I’m by your side
So don’t you ever be lonely
Love will make it alright
When the shadows are closing in
And your spirit diminishing
Just remember you’re not alone
And love will be there
To guide you home
Anytime you need a friend
I will be here
You’ll never be alone again
So don’t you fear
Even if you’re miles away
I’m by your side
So don’t you ever be lonely
Love will make it alright
If you just believe in me
I will love you endlessly
Take my hand
Take me into your heart
I’ll be there forever baby
I won’t let go
I’ll never let go
Anytime you need a friend
I will be here
You’ll never be alone again
So don’t you fear
Even if you’re miles away
I’m by your side
So don’t you ever be lonely
It’s alright

...........

I've seen the movie Brokeback Mountain at the Gateway Mall this afternoon. The Film was good. Ang Lee was brilliant. He's well-known for panoramic shots. Brokeback Moountain is located in Wyoming. I can't hardly undersatand some of their speaking lines because they have a hard southern accent.

There are some scenes which are not relevant to the plot thought these scenes are magnificently crafted... you'll enjoy each scenes despite of irrelevance to the wholeness of the film.

I hope Michelle Williams will win because she's awesome! I really admire her acting on that film. Anne hathaway is also an all-time favorite of mine, her acting ability has been enhanced. She has embraced mature roles with confidence and I hope she will be given more roles such as her "hostile' role in Brokeback.

I've also seen "Walk the Line" during my weekdays-off (for the first time..). Draggy! that's all I can say. It's another "Ray"..... the life of an artist a few dacades back... their rise and fall..& sex, drugs and rock and roll... fortunately Reese Witherspoon and Joaquin Phoeniz starred in that film... Reese also grown up from her acting style, no more blonde attitude as they say.

Back in Gateway Mall, It is my first time to watch at the Globe Platinum Cinema. It's very expensive but it is worth paying. With the lazy-boy and 180 degrees murals (did I get it right?) and a free pop corn bucket and a medium sized soda, you can have the luxury for only P299.99.
I'll be looking forword for X-men 3, Pirates of the carribean 2, and MI3 in that cinema.... How I wished I've watched Narnia and Harry Potter in that Cinema as well..... hehehehe

Hail 2 the Queen!!!!

Whatever they say, they can never bring her down!

Mariah Carey has once again reigned supreme for winning 3 awards from the recent Grammy Awards held on Feb. 8, 2006. Her album "The Emancipation of MIMI" swept 3 grammys. The Queen was nominated for 8 awards which includes "Album of the year", "Song of the Year" for"We belong together" and "Best Female-pop vocal"

The Queen took home "Best Contemporary R&B Album", "Best R&B Song (We Belong Together)" and "Best Female r&b vocal performance".

The album sold more than 7 Million copies worldwide. Her Single "We Belong together" spent 14 weeks at the top of the US chart. Currently, Mimi has has a total of 17 number 1 singles at the Bilboard. She is also expecting to tie with Elvis Prestley and The Beatles for artist with most number 1 singles in the Billboard Chart!

After the rain and heartbreaks, Mariah eclipses other Divas by emancipating.....

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I've heard this morning that Mariah was supposed to open the said Awars show with her operatic rendition of "We Belong Together". But apparently, according to the news, Madonna appealed to the organizers that she should perform as an opening act, she threatened the organizers that if she will not be given that opportunity, she will not perform that night at all.
Well, for me, Mariah don't have to do the opening anyway, her performance was superb and she recieved too much attention and needs to show everyone whats she got. She's well aware that being "premadonna" would never do wonder for her soaring carreer. What a humble queen...

High

the speak

Will it ever be?
I’ve tried so hard to find sweet serenity
Are you still afraid?
Just close your eyes and dream,
and feel it fade away.

Time won’t flow, everyone knows
When the pain fades away
And dreams won’t die, with tears in our eyes
You’ve got to hold your head up high….

It’s taken some time,
And I’ve given up the will to change your state of mind
Try and understand,
It’s not so hard to see that I am just a man.

Time won’t flow, everyone knows
When the pain fades away
And dreams won’t die, with tears in our eyes
You’ve got to hold your head up high….

Will it ever be?
I’ve tried so hard to find sweet serenity
Try and understand,
It’s not so hard to see that I am just a man.

Time won’t flow, everyone knows
When the pain fades away
And dreams won’t die, with tears in our eyes
You’ve got to hold your head up high

Best and Worst

Oscar season once again, it is one of the prestigious event in hollywood. Stars, once again, will go down from the sky for this event.

I haven't seen any of the film that was nominated but after reading some reviews and heard of some forecast, I decided to pick either of the two films, Brokeback Mountain or Walk the Line.


Best Actor/Actress for leading roll are the main highlights of the Event, So I have my own pick among all the nominees, though it may sound bias because as what I've mentioned, I haven't seen any of the films and their performances. I based my own choices according to the previews from these films. And for that, I'll go for Joaquin Phoenix (Walk the line) for Best Actor and Reese Witherspoon or Fellicity Huffman (Transamerica) for Actress.


Both Witherspoon (my idol's better half) and Huffman (as lynette in Desperate Housewives) won the best Actress from Golden Globe Awards, though Witherspoon won the recent SAG (Screen Actor's Guild) for Best Actress, I should say it will be a close fight. Unfortunately, Zhang Ziyi wasn't nominated for Memoirs of geisha. I've heard her perfomance was also superb.

Last year, I predicted that jamie Fox and Leonardo de caprio will have the tight competition but it turned out to be Fox to win the Golden Man. Hillary Swank won, No doubt.


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Speaking of flicks, I would like to mention my ownm list of films (that I've watch) from 2005. I want it to be called as "the best films of 2005" (in no particular order)


Lemony Snicket's Series of Unfortunate events
Narnia, the Lion, the witch, and the wardrobe
Alot like Love
Harry Potter and the Goblet of fire
Batman Begins
Hide and Sick
The Family Stone
Finding Neverland
Nasaan ka man
War of the Worlds
Ocean's twelve
Mr. and Mrs Smith
Madagascar
Constantine
Longest Yard
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
The Island
The Brothers Grimm
Bewitched
Kung Fu Hustle
In her shoes
History of Violence


Worst films of 2005.. ever

tay may momoo
Saint Ange
Dreamboy
Can this be love
Kingkong
Sin City
Amityville Horror
The Skeleton key
The Adventures of Lava girl and shark boy in 3d
2036

open letters...

I've posted my first "open letter" a few days ago and I decided continue posting such letters. these letters are intended for some individuals who have somehow deeply touched my life in immeasurable ways. It is my own way to reach these people whom I can no longer reach...

The concept is not original, it was taken from one of the bloggers. I was inspired to do the same so I can speak out whats inside me, to ulneashed whatever thoughts that was never reaveled, emotional dillemas that is still burried inside me towards that person.

I've also decided not to "name" these individuals to conceal their identity. But I'll make sure that person will determine that I am refering to him/her.

Please do not be alarmed, this is only my own thoughts...


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OPEN LETTER TO MY MOM


Kamusta ka na? It's been 3 years since I've talked to you.. it's been a long time now... but here I am.. still the same...

I just want to let you know how I trully feel...

I'm still upset. So upset that you went away so suddenly, so early that no one could imagine.. I could have share most of the important things in my life to you...

I never showd any sadness or despair when you left... not even grieved.... ... it's just that I still don't know how to accept it... I don't want to acknowledge the fact that you're gone.. tears are not enough to express how I felt that pain.. it cuts me so deep.. very deep

Once, my friend told me that he envy me, for my strenght. I asked why, he said I moved on so fast even after you left. I didn't say a thing, it is not true at all. I'm not strong... I still denies the fact that you can no longer be with us...

I always think that it would be better if you are here... to guide me with all my endeavors... to witness all my triumphs... I always think that I would be better...

I don't even wanna see my brother's face... it weakens me...

From the 24 years of my existence.. i never had a chance to thank you... I don't have to mention every single details that I have to be thankful for... but thank you.. for this life...

God has his own purpose... he selected you to be with him in heaven... to watch over me and my brother...

I'm praying to heavens taht I may not commit mistakes that will bring you sorrow.... All I wanted is for you to be prod, proud of who I become... that I was never a disappointment...

I thank you to this day.. that you brought me to this world..............


Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away

Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear m
It keeps me alive
Alive

And I know you're
shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

Darling, I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared

And I know you're shining
down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've
lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say

preValentines Post

LOVE QUOTE:


true love isn't finding the perfect person.
true love is loving an imperfect someone, perfectly.

love isn't just about being the object of one's affection.
it is about showing your feelings that is appreciated.

someone who allows you to love the way you want is the perfect lover...

**from one of my friends in FAB

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HEAVEN'S WHAT I FEEL


love sometimes can be like destiny....
there's no way to say forever
may not realize your dreams
and love sometimes is like the blowin' wind
it can take us to wherever
sending us sometime it wings
but i have broken all the rules of love...
i never dreamed that i could come this far....
and now i'm lost in my emotions
you're becoming my devotion
there's nothing i can do
to stop this love for you...
i was not supposed to fall in love with you
i have someone else....
someone else is loving you
and i was not supposed
to let this love get through
(let love get through)
so let me say for real....
heaven's what i feel
when i'm with you...

(this feeling is forever)
it is forever...
(you make me feel like heaven)
i feel like heaven
(my love is true when i'm with you... ooh...oooh...you...ooo)

how could i have known
that in your eyes
(in your eyes)
i would find the deepest answer
to the questions of my heart
and how could i have known
that by your side
(by your side)
was the light to fill the darkness
and the shadows of my life
but i have broken all the rules of love
i never dreamed
that i could come this far
and now i'm lost in my emotion
you're becoming my devotion
there's nothing i can do
to stop this love for you...

i was not supposed
to fall in love with you
i have someone else....
someone else is loving you
and i was not supposed
to tet this love get through
(let love get through)
so let me say for real....
heaven's what i feel....
when i'm with you....
(this feeling is forever)
...ooou..ooou...oooo

(you make me feel like heaven,
my love is true,
when 'm with you..
ooo...ooo..hoo..hoo)

(heaven....heaven...)
is what i feel when we're together
(heaven....heaven...)
just look in my eyes
and you'll see it's come true.....

i was not supposed
to fall in love with you
i have someone else....
and someone else is loving you
and i was not supposed
to let this love get through
(let love get through)
so let me say for real....
heaven's what i feel
when i'm with you....




Underneath it all
No Doubt

There's times where I want something more
Someone more like me
There's times when this dress rehearsal
Seems incomplete
But, you see the colors in me
like no one else
And behind your dark glasses you're...
You're something else

[Chorus:]
You're really lovely
Underneath it all
You want to love me
Underneath it all
I'm really lucky
Underneath it all
You're really lovely
You know some real bad tricks
And you need some discipline
But, lately you've been trying real hard
And giving me your best
And, you give me the most gorgeous sleep
That I've ever had
And when it's really bad
I guess it's not that bad

[Repeat Chorus]
So many moons that we have seen
Stumbling back next to me
I've seen right through and underneath
And you make me better
I've seen right through and underneath
And you make me better
Better... better...
[Lady Saw:]Y
ou are my real Prince Charmin'
Like the heat from the fire
You were always burnin'
And each time you're around
My body keeps stalin'
For your touchYour kisses and your sweet romancin'
There's an underside to you
That so many adore
Aside from your temper
Everything else secure
You're good for me,
babyOh that,
I'm sure
Over and over again
I want more

[Gwen:]
You've used up all your coupons
And all you've got left is me
And somehow I'm full of forgiveness
I guess it's meant to be

[Repeat Chorus]
You're really lovely
Underneath it all
You want to love me
Underneath it all
I'm really lovely
Underneath it all
And you're really lovely

DOS.....

I just wanna let my happiness be expressed. I know I can't divulge it publicly right now for the "issue" is very esoteric...(actually, the entire account knew it.. secretly?) I'm just happy... It's on the "second month.. we held it succesfully at FRIDAYS and watch a fim (no need to mention)... I received a book entitled, "Angel's and Demons" by Dan Brown (the phenomenal writer of "Da Vinci Code"). Take note, it's not just a hard bound, it is the "illustrated Edition".

The First Month was held at CHILI's.. moving more into social climbing level.. hehehehe... during the first time, I received a "GOLA" shoes.. hehehehe... nice ayt?