an open letter to AKT (March 10 '05)

here I am.

Alone in these murky fortress, several obscured thoughts has been resonating into these innocent mind.

Wondering wherever you have been. I've been seeking for years to answer the questions you left unanswered.

I've always waited, waited until the sun shine's turn into gray, and until the birds stops to hum. You're still nowhere to find, you are always out of sight.

All I have from you are the memories of our past that I treasured from my bewilderness. I still remember that very scent that captivated my heart and everytime I smell that perfume, It always remind me of a very sweet, gentle and caring person. The print of that black skirt, that unique hairstyle and that charming smile....

I kept dreaming that one day I can feel the warmth of your embrace, but all was just a dream nnow.

It's been a year since you told me that you will be back, but you never did... and now you're now with someone else....again...... someone whom you've used to love.....

We've waited for 5 long years, but it's time to let go.. time to move.. once again we we're both with someone else.. Just like it is back then.. we we're paired with someone and we both know that we have to let go.... and that's what we need to do... let me go.. take it slow...

effervesced....

The hardest part of loving is when love was unreciprocated. It is disappointing somehow if you expected so much from that person you've ever cared for but never showd up any concern about your existence . If loving would only come up on a one-way, there's no reason at all to stay for it can no longer be called "love"....

There are times that we even fool ourselves, beleiving that someday, we might be loved and we might be recognized at last, just to hold on... to hang on to this feeling. But all turns into false hopes and make beleives. We end up blinded by the fact that there will be no someday..., that it is so wrong to hold on....

It will only turn into realization that things would end up the least we expected them to be....

Disappointments comes along with too much anticipations......... so never expect at all.....

Love will soon arrive... no one knows when, but we just have to open our hearts... despite of hatred and despair.. it will land just on the right time.. right place.... right moment......



"I've put you up on that pedestal, so high, alongside with the gods and godesses, convinced myself that I would be very happy even just to see you from up above and fooled myself that that would be enough. But I can no longer reach you, for you were there, beyond my reach and I'm here, wating for you to comeback...."

kung anu-ano..........

My blog's will be turning 1 year next month, I hope by then I'll be able to personalized my blog template, thouogh I'm still learning to create one. But every now and then, I learn few things about it and it's getting exciting. As you can see on theright side, you'll see my profile and below it, you'll see the "FAVORITE" link. It contains some of the bloggers I usually visit. I admired their templates and I recommend these blogs because you'll definitely enjoy reading their posts as much as I do.

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It's gonna be "my day" in just a few days now. have no plan yet. bahala na si Batman!

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di na nya ko pinapansin.. hmp...

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2nd month with a princess, 'hope it'll go for years....

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Narnia and alot more

Finally, I've seen Narnia ths morning and I'm so pleased with the movie. I mentioned in one of my post last year that it is, indeed, one of the movies I'm looking forward to see this 2006. Just an info, It's the first book that I've ever read. Stephen, my childhood friend, lend me his book when we were still in 4th grade. Unfortunately, I don't have a good memory so I can no longer remember the whole story. Good thing that there is a movie about it and I'm very happy with it.
The plot was good, it may just have a long transitionary period but it didn't became draggy at all. I love every single moment of the film.

And these are some of the movies I would like to see and I can't hardly wait....

Memoirs of geisha, starring Zhang Zyi, Da vinci code, X-Men3, and Superman Returns. (Most of these will be shown on May)

Post number 1

It's on the 9th of January already and I just had the urge to write or post something on my blog. Due to some realizations I had, I can now write somethng on it. I'm currently at work and let me tell ya that I'm not doing good at all. I'm doing the right thing but I'm not contented with the results of the report... Ranking 30-something for the whole floor for a month now is not at all very pleasing.

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Time has passed, the Holliday has gone and we have to go back to reality. No more gifts, no more food, no more spending! but more party.. hehehehehe


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I was at the pantry just an hour ago when someone called me "jun-jun". I was in shocked, I thought someone from my childhood had recognized me. Well, to start with, that's my house name in Pampanga. I'm not a junior but I was called "jun-jun". But it came out to be a total mistake. I'm not the person he's refering to. He's actually looking for his cousin and obviously I don't know him at all. This is not new to me, got several instances that I was mistaken as someone they know. There was once I was walking down the corridor of my school and I was called as jayson, and the girl is refering to his ex-boyfriend and she was starting to ask me why I'm not giving her a call or why I'm not responding to her text messages. And another thing is during my ROTC class, I was called "brye", with no hesitations, this guy suddenly hugged me and said "pare, kamusta ka na?" and before he knew it, I'm not his "kumpare". Also, when I'm in higshcool, I was dating this girl from a different school and I was dumped because she thought I was that someone she saw at her school who dated one of her friends. She almost confronted the boy, and eventhough it turned out that I'm not the same person, I was still dumped because of the mishaps she had by that silly "mis-identity".

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