open letters...

I've posted my first "open letter" a few days ago and I decided continue posting such letters. these letters are intended for some individuals who have somehow deeply touched my life in immeasurable ways. It is my own way to reach these people whom I can no longer reach...

The concept is not original, it was taken from one of the bloggers. I was inspired to do the same so I can speak out whats inside me, to ulneashed whatever thoughts that was never reaveled, emotional dillemas that is still burried inside me towards that person.

I've also decided not to "name" these individuals to conceal their identity. But I'll make sure that person will determine that I am refering to him/her.

Please do not be alarmed, this is only my own thoughts...


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OPEN LETTER TO MY MOM


Kamusta ka na? It's been 3 years since I've talked to you.. it's been a long time now... but here I am.. still the same...

I just want to let you know how I trully feel...

I'm still upset. So upset that you went away so suddenly, so early that no one could imagine.. I could have share most of the important things in my life to you...

I never showd any sadness or despair when you left... not even grieved.... ... it's just that I still don't know how to accept it... I don't want to acknowledge the fact that you're gone.. tears are not enough to express how I felt that pain.. it cuts me so deep.. very deep

Once, my friend told me that he envy me, for my strenght. I asked why, he said I moved on so fast even after you left. I didn't say a thing, it is not true at all. I'm not strong... I still denies the fact that you can no longer be with us...

I always think that it would be better if you are here... to guide me with all my endeavors... to witness all my triumphs... I always think that I would be better...

I don't even wanna see my brother's face... it weakens me...

From the 24 years of my existence.. i never had a chance to thank you... I don't have to mention every single details that I have to be thankful for... but thank you.. for this life...

God has his own purpose... he selected you to be with him in heaven... to watch over me and my brother...

I'm praying to heavens taht I may not commit mistakes that will bring you sorrow.... All I wanted is for you to be prod, proud of who I become... that I was never a disappointment...

I thank you to this day.. that you brought me to this world..............


Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away

Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear m
It keeps me alive
Alive

And I know you're
shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

Darling, I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared

And I know you're shining
down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've
lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say