CATER 2 U

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
[Beyonce]
Baby, I see you workin' hard
Wanna let you know that I'm proud
Let you know I admire what you do
Don't know if I need to reassure you
My life would be purposeless without you
If I want it (you got it)
When I ask you (you provide it)
You inspire me to be better (ooh)
You challenge me for the better (ooh, ooh)
Sit back and let me pour out my love letter
Let me help you take off your shoes
Untie your shoe strings, take off your cufflinks
What you wanna eat, Boo, let me feed you
Let me run your bath water
Whatever you desire, I'll aspire
Sing you a song, turn the game on
I'll brush your hair, help you put your do-rag on
Wanna foot rub, want a manicure
Baby, I'm yours
I wanna cater to you, boy
[chorus]
Let me cater to you
Cause baby, this is your day
Do anything for my man
Baby, you blow me away
I got your slippers, your dinner, your dessert
And so much more, anything you want
Let me cater to you
Inspire me from the heart
Can't nothing tear us apart
You're all I want in a man
I put my life in your hands
I got your slippers, your dinner, your dessert
And so much more, anything you want
I wanna cater to you
[Kelly]
Baby, I'm happy you're home
Let me hold you in my arms
I just wanna take the stress away from you
Making sure your that I'm doing my part
Boy, is there something you need me to do
If you want (I got it)
Just say the word I (I'm a try it)
I know whatever I'm not fulfillin'
Another woman is willing
I'm gonna fulfill you, mind, body and spirit
I promise ya, I keep myself up
Remain the same chick you fell in love with
I'll keep it tight, keep my figure right
I'll keep my hair fixed, rockin' the hottest outfits
When you come home late, tap me on my shoulder
I'll roll over
Baby, I heard you, I'm here to serve you
If it's love you need, to give it is my joy
All I wanna do
Is cater to you, boy
[chorus]
Let me cater to you
Cause baby, this is your day
Do anything for my man
Baby, you blow me away
I got your slippers, your dinner, your dessert
And so much more, anything you want
Let me cater to you
Inspire me from the heart
Can't nothing tear us apart
You're all I want in a man
I put my life in your hands
I got your slippers, your dinner, your dessert
And so much more, anything you want
I wanna cater to you
[Michelle]
I wanna give my breath, my strength, my will to be there
That's the least I can do, let me cater to you
Through the good, the bad (the bad), the ups and the downs
I'll still be here for you, let me cater to you
Cause you're beautiful (you're beautiful), I love the way you are (you are)
Fulfill your every desire, your wish is my command
I wanna cater to my man
Your heart, so pure, your love shines through
The darkness, we'll get through
(So much) so much of me is you (is you)
I wanna cater to my man
[chorus]
Let me cater to you
Cause baby, this is your day
Do anything for my man
Baby, you blow me away
I got your slippers, your dinner, your dessert
And so much more, anything you want
Let me cater to you
Inspire me from the heart
Can't nothing tear us apart
You're all I want in a man
I put my life in your hands
I got your slippers, your dinner, your dessert
And so much more, anything you want
I wanna cater to you

24 hours of loneliness

Not to see you or hear from you within 24 hours is new to me, eversince you became mine. I am desperate to know why becoz im not used to this kind of situation.. me without you by my side is like a life without the whole world.. you said goodbye, but never that I kissed your lips nor felt your body next to mine.... and you flewn away.... so far.... that I thought you will be back soon,.... but it never happened at all, I'd wished and hoped that I will be hearing your voice that same day but all falls into pieces that time had passed and there's no you... something I'd never had any idea that it would come our way..

Still on the agony and of false hopes that tomorrow when I opened up my eyes, I'll see you though I must admitt that I put too much anticipation.. but the pain of truth comes back into a painful reality as I realized that you'll never be mine again... that u've already left me here, lifeless...

I never though our life would be like this, That I put you to that pedestal, above, so high, with the stars that shines upon me, the light that glitters on my path but now I have to accept the fact thatI can not be with you on that highness, that I have to submerged myself into these obscurity. Solitudely, I can no longer be with you coz u were with the gods and the godesses.... and I was left here so alone.. so afraid...

That 24 hours of loneliness happened without me noticing it... because you became my life, the air that I breathe, the blood that runs on my veins and the smile upon my face... and then you're gone... How do you expect me to move-on with this life I used to have while I was with you... neither I had a choice, but to go on.... and someday, I can tell the world, that I fell in love, and that is the most happiest thing that ever happened to me since the day i find love...

another 10 things....

10 things I want to achieve (as in right now!)

1.Go home. sleep (so cold coz it's raining)
-yup, and i have to prepare coz we will be on the night shift, again! so I need to take a sleep

2.Go home to pampanga (still sleep)
-i missed pampanga especially when raining...( i can't wait for my vacation leave!)

3.Buy a new jacket (for office works)
-all my jackets are not to be paired with my corporate attires because they're too casual...

4. Watch "The Goblet of Fire" and "Chronicles of Narnia"
-name it, I've seen them all (Batman, Mr. and Mrs. Smith, San ka man, and most of the films that was shown last week..) and I'm one of the million fanatics(kiddos) who's more than excited to these two gigantic flicks... hope i can get a better seat ...(",)

5.Visit Baguio (fix some stuff)
-i miss this place too!!!!. can't wait to see my old friends, and the things that I used to have when I'm still staying there..

6.Get my bday present from aby
-yes, yes, it's been 3 months since my bday and I haven't got my present from her (which she insisted.. not me).. but wait, my xmas gift wasn't given either!

7.read and finish my books (the Alchemist and Tuesdays with Morrie)
-I just finished harry potter (finally) and my baby bought a book which was "Tuesdays with Morrie" and i hope i would be able to read it but because of the heavy rain this past few days, I just end up curled on my bed to take a nap... so i must defy the temptation

8.Buy new clothes (coz i run out of it)
-I'm not a fashion-perk and I'm not particular with brands.. for as long as I'm comfortable and presentable, I can wear it. But I actually run out of clothes and I have to make them as an investment or a tangible proof that I'm already earning.... though I don't earn that much... (coz i really can't save coz i spend alot!)

9. Look for a new place...
-im planning to move out from that "bodega"! I have to look for something better...

10. Get a PSP!!!!
-no comments needed! = )

Im so deeply touched by the words from my beybee's blog... I dunno, I don't have to feel guilt but I felt so sad the moment I browsed the blog. It seems that we really hurt each other. But on the other hand, I felt at ease because we've finally picked all the peices.. I hope we still work things out..... i feel you bee

summer's gone... still I'm sranded...

As I woke up this morning to go to work (I usually woke up at 3 am coz my work starts at 5) I suddenly felt like it's gonna rain so damn hard... and that premonition came into life.. I got so irritated for the fact that i have to come to work early and was soaked in the pouring rain... horrible.. so much...

Sentiments flowd over our team's yahoo group for it was the first day of our dispersion. I never had any second thougth to have my share so I write down my own say about the group breakup. And that's how I started my day.. and so was my week....

I'm getting confused on how to get a resolution with my dillema. Should I end this? Should I look for a greener pasteur over the fields of several Company's willing to offer such lucrative job? Or should I let my self stuck as I just stay loyal since I'm a year old in this Job? still undecided.. but I know something good's about to unfold.... I'm getting excited..... I'm feeling it already...

Anyway congrats to myself.. I stayed for a year on this "battlefield".

missin' you..

well, must na? I've been thinking the past few days and asking this question to myself... or should I say, I should ask this to those whom I really miss... those who knows me inside-out, those whom I shared my best days with... those I've trusted the most... my friends.

It's been a year since I've been here in Manila and it seems I've been stuck here for almost a long decade now.... Yah, I've been missing the old days.. the school.. the studies... the bonding... the projects.. the "extra-curricular activities".. all those stuff...

Minsan din kasi, (even H.S. days..), Ive became so dependent sa mga kaibigan ko... minsan nga di ako maka galaw ng wala sila... and as what I've mention, even I'm a year old here in Manila... namimiss ko rin ang pina pamper ka ng mga kaibigan mo...

kasi naman, di na sila nagpaparamdam.. whether ung mga highschool friends ko or yung mga kasama ko sa college (although hindi maikakaila na meroong tampuhang naganap between us). Nagkita kami kahapon ni Aby (college friend ko) sa Greenbelt to attend a mass, then she let me see the pics (that was taken last december on our christmas party) and it was the pics when the barkada's complete... no conflicts or whatsoever.. then narealize ko na, kalahating taon na pla un... na nakakaraan...

ba't ko ba naisip tong mga 'to? ba't ko ba bigla clang na-alala? to think na choosing to stay in manila would automatically separate me from them?.... kasi naman nasa Manila ako lately(University belt) and it's almost the start of the new schoolyear.. I just can't help but to look back on the days that we were still together.. when we were still complete...

"Gone are the days when we were young

and words are left un-sung,

the mem'ries we've shared was ours to keep

not to burried them on the ground that is so deep...."

I know naman that we really have to move on... pero u cannot just erase those times na nagkasama kayo diba? siguro nga 'time heals a wound'... but according to "Dumbledore" na "some wounds run deep for the healing..."

according sa work.. ayun, dispersd ang team namen and napunta pa ko sa taong never kong na-realized that he existed.. mean na kung mean.. pero ganun lang talaga... minsan napaka-odd... u'll be in situations you least expect them to happen...

as for my life as a whole.. it's moving forward.. hoping this things happening right now to lasts.... into eternity.. I'm happy (kahit namimiss ko mga klaibigan ko) di lang din ako siguro ng sanay na mag-isa... sana di nya ko iwan even with my flaws.. kung iwan man nya ko sana ung matatangap ko ang dahilan.. coz im giving myself na... without any hesitations.. this is just me.. u just have to see me.. deeply...

"I want you to see me naked

and my soul shoul you awakened

for that's the only reason to understand me

that Im with you with everything... endlessly..."