breakdown,,,

Once again, I let someone hurt me... it was so deep... the person u once looke-up to, the person u cherished with all your life, and that will also be the person who will give you the taste of bitterness... the person you've trusted most.. and the source of your strength... how can u stand now when that person who used to stood by you left you in the midst of obscurity... I felt so harrased, so manipulated. I was caught off-guarded, with no wings to fly and destiny's seems so dark.... you once thought me how to love not knowing ur only there to teach me and not to be there to share it with me..... I hope u are now contended of what u've made me... weak and helpless.. hoping that death will lead me to where i don't feel this pain... somewhere no you to hurt me...



you called yesterday, to basically say
that you care for me but, that you're just not in love
immediately i pretended to be feeling similarly
and led you to believe i was okay
to just walk away from the one thing
that's so unyielding and sacred to me

chorus:
well i guess i'm trying to be nonchalant about it
and i'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you
but in reality i'm slowly losing my mind
underneath the guise of a smile gradually i'm dying inside
friends ask me how i feel, and i lie convincingly
cause i don't want to reveal the fact that i'm suffering
so i wear my disguise 'til i go home at night
and turn down all the lights and then i break down and cry

so what do you do when somebody you're so devoted to
suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven't
got a clue
of the pain that rejection is putting you through
do you cling to your pride and sing "i will survive"
do you lash out and say "how dare you leave this way"
do you hold on in vain as they just slip away